Just came back from work...
Was supposed to have tuition lesson
with dearest niece but was too tired
so cancelled the tuition and go home straight..

next,
Work was superb yesterday although it was
kinda boring at times.. hahahahaha....
ended up de-torning roses with Feeqah Dearest,
and we had to do the "LOVE ME, LOVE ME NOT" thingy...
hahaha... (Shumin & Shixian joined us later on)
FRESH ROSES ARE SO BEAUTIFUL! I LOVE FRESH RED ROSES!
I WOULD WANT A BOUQUET OF THEM FOR VALENTINES DAY PRETTY PLEASE!
hahahaha... jkjk...
so overall, work was quite fun yesterday....

It's awkward how i could still love you
while knowing that youi've ditched me
and hurt me like nobody's business...
It's funny how i could still miss you while
knowing that you've made a great fool
out of me...

How STUPID can i be?....
It's proven how LOVE can make me do
all the fucking STUPID things....

Whatever it is, LIFE have got to move on...
No matter how hard and harsh life and love
have been to me, i know i still have to move on...

POSTINGS OF SCHOOL RESULTS FOR
LAST YEAR O'LEVEL STUDENTS.....
ALL THE BEST PEOPLE! MAY YOU GET
THE CHOICE THAT YOU WANT...

First choice for me please! PHARMACEUTICAL SCIENCE...
hehehehehehe...

So tommorrow's outing is on mann!
EXCITED! EXCITED! EXCITED!
hahaha...

okeh.. i'm so knocking off.....
bye!

TO MY DARLING SHAFEEQAH, I'M SORRY
IF YOU FEEL OFFENDED OR I HURT YOU..
I REALLY DIN'T MEAN IT THAT WAY...
WE'RE NOT GOING TO PART OKEH?....
I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT....

I read someone's blog earlier..
i told myself many times before not to
read her blog eer again.. but i just did
a few minutes ago and now i'm regretting it..

I'm already starting to realise how much of
a FOOL i was back then.. i feel so stupid..
i feel like crying.. and now, i even feel like
ending my fucking life..

FUCKING HELL! i shouldn't have read her
fucking blog... SHIT MAN!

I should have known better than to fall for all
his stupid promises and all the stupid lies..
i shouldn't have waited.. and i should have just
stop myself from falling for him in the first place...

FUCK! i need to get oer him!!!!!!
GOD PLEASE HELP ME......

Back to work in morning shift...
pffft! felt sick and did'nt want to
get up and go to work earlier this morning..
but then i told myself that i really need the
money damn badly..hahahaha... so i got up
from my bed and bath and got ready for work..

reached work about 10minutes late...
hahahaha... but whatever fuck! that old bastard is
so not around... so we slacked eenthough there were
orders... he won't be around till like friday....
oooooooohhh! I SMELL FREEDOM!!!!!

okeh whatever.. i've got a date with three people on
friday... hahahaha... no! not with my bf or dating partners
but the three people who have been really close to me last year,
but drifted apart due to somethings... and now,
we're trying to get back together... i hope things turn out well...

so, school posting results will be out on friday morning...
God! this is so irritating.. having to go through the same stress
all over again... but of cos a lesser one lar....

okeh... gtg! i neec my fucking rest cos tmrw i need to wake up
fucking early for fucking work....

Was forced to go to Grandmother's place
in hougang. pffft! spoil my mood only...
only certain people would know why i
hate to go there...

haiix!
MY APOLOGY TO DINIE DAYANA....
for not be able to join you at your Family picnic...
I'm really sorry, i promise i'll make it some other days okeh?

nothing much happen today...
i'm just waiting for my posting results anxiously...
and i'm just waiting for the time my blogshop shared
with my niece to be produced... so do be updated okeh??

LOVE, I KNOW I'VE LET YOU GO, BUT I CAN'T DENY THAT I REALLY MISS YOU BADLY....

TO MY DEAREST BROTHER,
HAPPY 27TH BIRTHDAY!!
I love you till the little pieces of my heart...
take care of yourself okeh? and as usual,
i'll be missing you when you work overseas again...

Been working night shift for
the past two weeks. It was fun
but somehow all of us got irritated
when that fugly old bastard step in
and complains.. WTF!! we're doing our work okeh!
you jealous isit you don't even know how to have fun..
STUPID!!! so everything was alright until this week,
fugly bastard somehow told winnie bitch to look out on us..
(well, that's what we thought..) hahahaha..

so we had to help the rude F&G people pack the oranges..
blablablablabla.. and guess what, instead of appreciating
our help, they ordered us more an was kind of unhappy of
the work that we did for them.. CB! i know...

and to show us appreciation, they bought us 2 paus each for supper..
FUCK YOU CB MOTHER NVR TEACH!!! they think we what sia..
for the f&g people you want buy them pau for supper can lar..
they ate dinner alrdy what, we havent eat dinner yet and you
want to stuff our mouths with paus? you try eating 2 pathetic
pau lar to last you the whole night.. FUCK YOU LAR!! so much of
showing you unsincere appreciation..

and one example of them trying to order us more is just now morning.
we put in alot of effort in packing the oranges for them
till we got cuts here and there...

and rebecca CB said : eeeeeee! why the orange so dirty?

winnie BITCH : where where?

rebecca CB : there... eeeeee! this one cannot lar..
must repack again and throw the dirty one...

winnie BITCH : yar yar, this one cannot lar... open and pack again..

NIGHT SHIFTERES : FUCK YOU LAR CB! YOU SO GOOD GO PACK YOURSELF LAR..
ORANGE GOT DIRTY MEH? WE GOT EAT ORANGE SKIN ISIT? IF WE TOUCH THE WRINKLED PART
WE WILL DIE ISIT?? CUSTOMER DIE AR IF TOUCH THE "DIRTY" PART?

fuck lor.. the orange is not even dirty lor..it was just wrinkled for goodness sake...pffft!!!!

okeh.. enough about that already.. i'm going off now..
back to work again later... haiiix!!!

yes i'm back.. and yes i've got
over the pathetic results i got..
hahaha, brother wasn't angry after all..
well, i'm glad he understood me..

so, i have been working night shift
for the whole week last week, and i'm
so gonna have to work night shift again
this week.. pfffft!! well, that's the reason
why i'm blogging like now.. duhhh..

okeh, I'm starting to miss my girlfriends already,
Dinie, Namirah and Feeqah.. i know, i get to meet
Feeqah like everyday, but i meet her as a colleague,
not as my girlfriend right..
besides, i won't have much time to spend with her
because of the fucking work load, and of cos i have
to let her and elfi have some privacy right? stupid lar you...

okeh, so feeqah told me that she changed her
mind about the school thingy.. are you really sure dear?
have you really made your final decision?? i don't want you
to regret after a while okeh? i just want the best for you,
and i'm sure you want the best for yourself too..
so think carefully okeh??

well, i suppose that's about it.. i need to tuck myself to
sleep now, or i won't be able to wake up for work later on in the evening..

Labels: IT'S STRANGE HOW I COULD MISS YOU SO MUCH EVENTHOUGH YOU'VE HURT ME AND BROKE MY HEART

I owe a million apology to all who
have been supporting me all this while..
Sorry, especially to Mum, who have been
expecting me to do well for my O's and
hoping for me to get an admission into
Hospitality & Tourism Management in TP,
or Nursing in either NYP or NP.. I am so
sorry i wont be able to fulfil your wish mum..
I know you were hoping to see me continue
your footsteps of becoming a nurse..
but i can't fulfil that wish of yours as
i didn't meet one of the subjects requirement,
which i myself was shocked about..

To my brother, I'm so sorry i disappoint you..
I know you were expecting me to get a result
which could lead me to a bright future..
but i guess I've really let you down..
I'm sorry i wasted your hard earned money on
my o'level fees.. I'm sorry i didn't manage to
fulfil my promises to you..
To my other family members, I'm sorry i let you
down with my results.. I'm sorry i dint set a good
example to the little ones..

Lastly, to the current secondary four students this year,
i advise you to start now.. Don't be like me, end up
regretting for not starting early.. Focus on Your English,
Mathematics and science..

To those who are wondering why I'm getting so emotional
and uptight, here's my explanation..
I did good in my individual subjects..
I mean not amazingly good, but i passed my English, science,
Malay, principles of accounts and food & nutrition.. but sadly,
i failed my mathematics and combined humanities by just one f***
grade.. And MATHEMATICS is the main reasons why i didn't get
admissions to even Nursing Course... And that is the reason why
I am really disappointed in myself and I'm pretty sure that everyone
in my family is disappointed in me even though they don't seem to show it..

ONCE AGAIN I AM REALLY SORRY...

Labels: GETTING OVER MY PATHETIC RESULTS IS SO HARD

It's Sunday and its a GIRLS DAY OUT PEOPLE!!!!!!!!
hahahahaha.. so i went out with my girlfriends,
DINIE, NAMIRAH & FEEQAH... it was super fun lar okeh..
hahaha.. i am shooooo gonna elaborate cannnnn....

so i met feeqah at abt 2..
then met mirah and dinie at almost 3...
the first thing that we did was to scream
and hug each other...
GOD, YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS THEM...
hahahaha.... okeh, then we went to the bowling alley..
we were going to play bowling.. DUHHHHH!!
hahahaha... okeh.. so for a first timer, namirah was superb...
hahahaha... it was damn funny lar.. hahaha..
feeqah keep on curling her hand everytime she wanna
throw the ball... hahahaha... dinie was the pro one..
hahaha.. dinie jgn kembang eh... hahahahaha...
but the outcome was(arranged from 1st to 4th)
:NAMIRAH, DINIE, AMALYNA, FEEQAH...
hahaha.. ceyh2 mirah..

haha.. okeh, moving on..
after bowling we mrt-ed up to bugis
and walked to arab street to eat at victory..
then after eating, we walked arnd to find
al tazaarq, a place where shisha is legal for our
age... pfffft! okeh.. so had shisha, became high
and laughed all our sorrows away.. hahaha..
whatever that's supposed to mean.. LOL!
and and, like duhhhhh we camwhoared!!!
will upload the pics soon okeh??
got alot lar and i sleepy already..
i'm gonna blog till here...

RESULTS TOMORROW!!!!! ALL THE BEST PEOPLE!!!!

IT'S ALREADY SUNDAY AND IT'S
REALLY MAKING MY HEART THUMP
EVEN FASTER...SSSHHHHIIITTTTTTT!!!!!!
I'M SO DAMN NEROUS FOR RESULTS CANN....
OMG OMG OMG OMG.....

okeh fine maybe i'm over reacting a little..
okeh not a little... i'm over reacting
like alot...

whatever about that.. so yesterday me and feeqah
was supposed to go to TP and NP open house..
but, eeerrrrmmmmmmm... plans changed..
hahaha.. we went shopping instead..
i know the pay that i get was like sshhiiittttt!!
but i still want to spend the money that i earn
after putting in alot of effort at work.. pffft!

so i went shopping with her and elfi and
i bought a new dress... like finally..
i'm sick and tired of my old clothes..

okeh.. will blog again soon..
ermmmm.. later maybe..
my mum is hurrying me up already...

okeh bye!

wtf!! after all the hard work
and effort i put in, i receive
only 760bucks?? a pathetic amount huh??
seriously, NOEL is a fucking child labour
company can..haiix! how the fucking hell
am i suppose to support my mum with that
little amount of money?? tell me how??
stupid @#%$#%@@!%#%^#^&$!$%$^&%##!!$%%^^&*&!!

okeh i'm done with that..
so i had a half day at work today..
why?? because i need to go back to school
for rehearsal.. tmrw's the performance..
and fucking hell, i've got to spray my hair damn it!!!
fine fine!! i'll spray my hair okeh??
but well, i'm so gonna wash it straight right after
performance.. made plans with feeqah to go to the
poly open hse at NP and TP.. so yeah..
EFA ask me to go TP with her at night but i'm not sure
i can mke it cos i've made lans with my family..
so i'll get back to you k dear??

okeh.. gtg now.. i'm so gonna turn in early cos
i so need to wake up damn early tmrw.. pffft! tsk...

Labels: TWO MORE DAYS TO O'LEVEL RESULTS

more pictures are coming up..
so stay tune okeh??
and O'LEVEL RESULTS IS COMING IN FIVE DAYS TIME!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!
I'M VERY NERvOUS CANNN??

Labels: THIS IS KILLING ME

i don't know why, but i'm really
short tempered these days..
maybe because i get irritated easily
by people who like to ATTRACT ATTENTION
and KAYPOH... and i really really
HATE it when people interupt my conversation..
It is so frustrating.. REALLY!! then when people
never entertain want to be angry.. say people got
no life some more.. come on lar.. you're the one
who have got no life.. going around kaypoh-ing
and wanting to know what others talking about..
wahlao.. just because you're the supervisor's nephew doesn't
mean you can say people this and people that..
go fuck off lar.. we don't want see your face already..
and F.Y.I. we're so irritated already cann?? hahahaha...
okeh now i'm talking like Jiao Jun, they all..
hahahaha..

okeh.. so i'm bored already leh.. hahahaha!
so i think i'd beter stop here before, well..
you know, i start to talk nonsense..

ouh yar...





THIS IS SPECIALLY FOR YOU MY DEAREST NIECE!!!
NURSYAHIN AMIRAH!! MAY ALLAH SHOWER YOU WITH
ALL HIS LOVE AND BLESSINGS.. MAY YOU BE SUCCESSFUL
IN YOUR UPCOMING ENDEAVOURS.. STUDY WELL AND DON'T
DISAPPOINT ANY OF US, YOUR FAMILY OKEH? I LOVE YOU ALWAYS...
TAKE CARE AND ALL THE BEST IN LOYANG SECONDARY SCHOOL....

Labels: PS I MISS SCHOOL CANNN

At first i was really on the verge
of quiting that fucking job lar..
but to think of it back i'll miss
my colleagues.. they are the reason
i'm still staying in this stupid
company doing stupid job and having to
face the stupid uncle Johnson,
and stupid Nigel lose!!! damn it..
really got my blood boiling lar just now..
arrrrgggggghhhhhhh!!!!! whatever lar..

okeh so i'm like having a conversation
on msn with.. hahahaha.. i got the wrong shumin..
hahahaha!! OMG! this is so freaky...
okeh.. it's my bad.. sorry pple! hehehehe....

okeh damn!! i miss school like damn badly!!
like seriously lor.. so me and feeqah will
be going to visit loyang secondary school
this friday and we're also going for the
cca open house.. like yay!!!!!!!!
hehehehehehehe.....

okeh be back again soon.....

hey there pple!!
so i went out today..
firstly i went to Long's
place at Tampines.. bussed down
to Tampines interchange and then
took mrt all the way to chinese
garden to accompany Baba to a
shop there cos he wanted to buy
something there.. then walked all the
way back to the mrt station and all the
way back to Tampines to have dinner at
Food Culture at Century Square.. it was
Baba's treat.. hahahaha.. thanks Ba..
then walk2 abit and back home....

OMG!!! FCKING HELLL!!!! I JUST GOT TO KNOW
SOMETHING ABOUT MY FORMER SCHOOL..
MR NASEEM IS OUT!!!! WTF!!!
LOYANG SECONDARY SCHOOL IS REALLY GOING
TO queenstown secondary sia....
WTH WTH WTH WTH!!!!!!!!
FELLOW LYSIANS, PLEASE TRY TO BARE WITH IT YEAH??
I REALLY PITY ALL OF YOU..

okeh.. i think that's all for now..
i'll upload the pics for the new year eve soon...

Labels: ALL I WANT IS YOU

I'm still wondering if you still remember..
If you still care.. If you still need me..
Cos right now, i'm feeling down.. i'm confused
of my own feelings and my own decision..
and memories keeps on flashing back..
i really thought you were the one..
i really thought that you'd be there with me
through my every ups and downs.. i thought you'll
e the one embracing me to sleep every night with your
melodious voice.. i thought that you'll love me forever
and always.. and most importantly, i thought you'd finally
be mine one day.. but i guess i thought wrong..
none of the above will be coming through.. i know you
din't want our relationship to end this way, neither do i..
but we've got no choice.. especially when she keeps on
blaming you for everything.. and especially when i have to
bring down my own dignity and being treated like i'm just
a piece of trash while she's the one who deserve to be treated
that way.. it's just unfair.. and you said that you're treating
fairly.. but the truth is, you're not.. you've always put her first..
and i was nvr your priority.. i'm sorry to say this but i was hurt..
i was hurt badly.. and if you still have feelings for me, i thank you..
and i really appreciate it.. i still love you, i still do..
it's just that i need to move on while you're moving on with your own..
i'm sorry but you'll always be my soulmate..

Labels: i'm still not over you

went to countdown party at vivo ity with
Feeqah Dearest.. the Fireworks was like shit lar..
Pffft!! should have stayed at marina bay.. haha!!
whatever.. it's over so yeah.. atleast i got to
watch the countdown party at marina bay on my hub station..
haha!! recorded it.. hahahahaha! so got to see the
beautiful and amazing fieworks!! IT WAS GOD DAMN NICE LAR!!
hahahaha!! must catch fireworks live when there's fireworks
shows especially if its at marina bay.. haha!! ouh yeah..
i forgot to mention abt the outing with Pearls, alanna and feeqah..
awesome.. hahahaha!! though we din't manage to watch a movie
as planned.. hahaha! so we ended up hving lunch and
camwhoar by the bay.. haha!! will upload the pics soon.. haha!!
okeh take care people..
AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

P.S. I'M STILL NOT OVER YOU THOUGH I'M TRYING TO MOVE ON..

The Girl That’s Trying To Let Go….

A M A L Y N A,
LYN in short..
Living her 18th this year..
Turns a year older every 17th May..
Have a very strong PASSION for DANCING
LOVES to SING too...
Currently ATTACHED to Muhd Nadzir ❤
NEVER irritate her when she's PISSED HATE ME?? you are welcome toGET LOST