Just Go - Jesse McCartney
I trusted you
Yeah that would be my first mistake
Yeah I...I've been lied to
Your eyes are ice cold blue
A mirror of the heart inside of you
You can't walk back in my life
You had your chance to be by my side
I don't have to hear you cry to know
[Chorus:]
Just go
I gave you my word and I promised to love you
Go, it's over
You had your chance
Just go
There's nothing inside me that still feels connected
to you to me you're already gone
I got a new love now
She's my new love now
And she loves me so
Takes me where you never took me
Although you tried tooHer eyes they read so true
So different from the way it was with you
I don't need you in my life
Forgot what it's like to be satisfied
I don't wanna hear you cry 'cause I know
[Chorus]
Takin' a look at these photographs
Fightin' my tears I try to relax
'Cause you came and you left and it all went by so fast
[Chorus X2]
I got a new love now
I trusted you
And that would be my first mistake
Labels: Just Go...
what we could have been, 5:37 pm.
Yesterday marks the last day of school before two weeks break... Omg!! this means that i'm not going to meet my classmates for like two whole weeks.. DAMN!! I'm soooo gonna miss them like crazy... Those people are the reason why i keep going to school.. But it's okeh.. i'm gonna meet most of them next friday.. heheh! really excited about it.. and2, im gonna have fun with dearest Zafirah for four whole days, from tuesday till friday.. *GRINS* hahah! sleeping over at dearest Mell's place on thursday night and off we go to east coast park... yayness!
emotionally and physically tired.. so here's out to everyone, just back off okeh? i don't wish to be pissed or pick a fight or start a quarell.. so yeah.. i'm trying hard, but i dont think my effort is just not enough.. *sigh*
Labels: i'm just tired...
what we could have been, 8:54 pm.
It
wasn't my fault that i reacted this way.. I'm sorry but somehow it hurts.. it hurts so badly when you actually found out that a friend of yours whom you understand
alot ditched you and when they actually did that you suddenly realise that you
don't know that person at all.. It hurt so bad.. i know, you tried explaining, but please, don't even bother because you yourself know how hard-hearted i am.. Once you hurt me, it's gonna be hard for you to mend it.. And like i said,
I'm masqueraded.. What you see outside does not reflect whats inside.. Because the truth is,
I'm hurt, i still am.. and so, i decide to keep all the pain inside and not show it.. So please don't assume that
I'm happy only when you see me smiling.. If you do, its simply obvious that you don't know me at all.. So yeah.. To whomever it is i am referring to, i
don't need your
explanation.. Just save it
okeh?
haiix!
p.s i miss you bby! where are you now?
Labels: missing you so badly... :(
what we could have been, 10:57 pm.
Some people are really getting on my nerves mann! tsk! cb sia.. think before you talk can? Don't give me motherfucking bullshit reasons.. ridiculous sia... pfffffft! irritating much.. it's like you tell me that you are starting on your intensive studying and you're busy and blablabla.. fucking hell, i'm not that stupid to believe you just like that la huh.. and its so mother fucking obvious that you're just not appreciating our mother fucking efforts to make a plan to meet up and such by just ditching us at the last minute? wth?! I'm not going to mention names here la but i'm sure you know who you are..i'm really disappointed..like really.. tsk! pffffft!
okeh, whatever about that..I'm so can't be bothered okeh.. and to whomever that im referring to above, just think for yourself la okeh, i'm not going to point fingers and assume.. but its right infront of my eyes. its so mother fucking obvious.. so like i say again, think before you open your mouth okeh?
my classmates are the main reason why im still waking up early in the morning to go to school.. I LOVE W45G! and SFAA!! hahah! and2, someone kene force to eat cucumber.. hahahahha!
While chewing the cucumber.. aaaaaaaaaawwhhh! look at his cute face..
he really need something to kill the taste.. hahah!
okeh bye.. :)
Labels: don't give me bullshit reasons and excuses la please...
what we could have been, 11:17 am.
Not gonna blog for today cos i'm freaking tired.. But i'm gonna upload pictures that i took with Kenneth(HOTSTUFF), and also most of the girls in W45G! hahah! so i'll let the picture tell you how mch fun i had when im in class okeh? hehehe!
more pictures coming up.. :)
what we could have been, 8:56 pm.
Helloooooo!!!!! Yes indeed another surprise.. hahah! THANK OU W45G!! I LOVE YOU PEOPLE ALOT AND I REALLY MEAN ALOT!!!!!!!
hahah! so mucj for your acting and blabla.. hahah! i was touched la.. hahah! sweet of you people! heheh! the best birthday ever!! I like!!!!! 2 surprises in a row.. heheh! :) *GRINS* pictures of my pressies will be uploaded soon okeh? hehehhe!
So, after school today i headed down to Ta Payoh to meet sister.. had very late lunch, okeh it was a very early dinner.. hahha! then bussed down to andrews road.. Hopes wasn't high, but there was a glipse here and there.. Its okeh cousin, try again, and never give up k? get over and done withyour o'levels first then can talk about anugerah.. hahha! k so, taxied home after everything hahah! LOL!
chatted with azni bby earlier! wooohoo! GOD! I MISS HER SOOOO THE VERY MUCH!! hhahaah! got alot for us to catch up on sia.. LOL! this weekend ah k? hehehhe!
haiiix! looks like someone is still not over certain things and still affected byit.. LOL! k whatever...kesian ehk? tsktsktsk!
don't think i'm oing to school tmrw..still feeling feverish.. :( couldnt tahan in class earlier.. hahah! LOL! okeh so i guess bye2 to week 5 science grade.. hhahha!
i miss you bby.. i dont know why but you seem to be permanent in my mind and inmy heart.. tsk! haiiix! and pple like mell bby, zaff bby, syaa bby, ahmad dear, david darling, etc can make me feel much better.. but they can possibly replace you fully... haiiix! saw you on friday, it did britened up my day a little bit, ut somehow my heart broke into ieces right after.. haiiix! for how long? till when? OMG! this is killing me.. tsk! $^(*@@!^&^*&(
k bye!
what we could have been, 11:57 pm.
Sweet seventeen it is..
hahah! a blissful birthday celebration i had today.. thanks to everyone who made it happen and to those who bothered to wish me, be in
through sms,
facebook or what so ever source..
hahah! Today marks the best day of my life.. Hope today will not be the last..
hahah!
My day started at about 1130, when my mum actually told me to bath and all.. First time ever
sia.. but surprisingly, i still
didnt expect anything..
hahaha! then i was slacking in my room with my
lappy dearest when i heard someone knocking on my door.. So i open the door and got a shock..
hahah! it was my dearests!!
DINIE DAYANA &
NUR SHAFEEQAH!!
hahhaha!
LOL! what a surprise huh?
hahha! but it
didnt end just there.. my dearest aunties, uncles, cousins, nieces and nephew came right after.. brother didnt miss a thing atall.. he was on webcam and enjoying the moments too.. hahha! i miss you brother.. come home soon okeh? LOVE YOU!
hahhaa! and there and then i thank Allah for blessing me with love,family and friends.. thank you all for making an effort to make my 17
th a blissful and memorable one.. i really
didnt expect to have a surprise party like this.. thank you.. :)
Tomorrow is another day.. W45G HERE I COME!!
HAHAHHA!
i'm bck to normal!!
hahah!
LOL!
yay!!
ONCE AGAIN, THANK YOU ALL FOR ALL THE EFFORT AND THOUGHTS!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!
Labels: SURPRISED
what we could have been, 11:07 pm.
OMG!! this is soooo not happening to me mann!! and i hate this!!! dear little miss body temperature, drop drastically pretty please?? i don't want to spend my 17th years of living on bed.. *CRY*... this is killing me mann!!!
I WANNA GO CRAZY WITH MY LOVELIES!!!!
Labels: little miss body temperature :(
what we could have been, 8:39 pm.
Feeling very sick today!! OMG! everyone in class was so sickly and dead today.. I hope i can go to school on monday.. i miss being crazy with my dearests... :( one day without craziness in class was just like a no no for me.. haiiiix!
Guess what? I saw *INSERT NAME*!!! tsk!! of all days!! haiiix! i dont know why.. but everytime i think of him, a few days later i'll hear news from him or i will see him..haiiix! i admit that i do miss him.. and i am not holding grudges or anything.. But that night's incident..
moving on, W45G!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!! hahhaha! k random! hahahha! im really in love with my class.. except fpr the fact that ermmm, i know you know everyone knows..*WINKS* hahahah! ehk babies ku~? hahah! only we know right SFAA? hahahah! LOL! k dah.. i want to sleep alrdy! i wanna get well by tomorrow if possible! i wanna celebrate my birthday blissfully! heheh! *GRINS*
BYE!
Labels: I FEEL SO SICKLY.. I MISS YOU *INSERT NAME*
what we could have been, 9:27 pm.
School have been really2 fun.. Especially when you have fun and loving classmates like me! hahahha! W45G IS LOVED!!!!!!! wooooohooooo~~~! It's like we're so open to each other.. hehs.. you know i know we all know ehk? hahahha! LOL! k nvm about that.. hahah!
Beats Encore auditions is tommorrow!! aaaaarrrggghhhhh!!! hahah! k whatever... let's just get it over and done with.. :)
I don't know why but i'm starting to miss you.. Yet again.. tsk! haiiix! i don't know why but you seem to be permanent in my head and more importantly my heart.. Why? hmmmph.. it's like glued.. Though i know i can't be with you and all but why do i still have you in my heart? tsk! i mean, i hate this feeling mann! tsk! and i miss you like crazy bodoh!!! you like biskut sia! kejap ader kejap takde.. tsk! damn you! tsk! *INSERT NAME*.............
Labels: and i hate missing you.....
what we could have been, 10:28 pm.
Pictures from previous weeks.. hahah! sorry for the late update! more pics will be uploaded later k?
thank you whye keat for the "present" I LOVE YOU! hahaha!
what we could have been, 4:16 pm.
TWO WORDS, IMMATURE AND INSECURE....
what we could have been, 10:14 am.
HAHAHHA! what a great laugh i had.. some people just don't want to give up huh? dah uat slh, pastu tak menagku.. or even worse, blame other's for your own care less attitude, and not taking initiative attitude? hahaha! Great joke mann! making a fuss out of a fucking small situation.. Just because of a privatised blog? How childish can you get girl? tsk tsk tsk! Haiiiix! And to those pple whom have got no life and wanna interfere but don't want to reveal their names, or even better dont know what is going on, i suggest, get a life and stay out of the problem if you really have got no guards to reveal your names.. hahaha! poor thing.. and please ehk, klau dah tak tau apaper, tapi maseh nak tag, tlg jgn.. kau nak babit kan bende laen bleh ah, jgn babitkan skola.. stupid pple.. Oooooops! thanks to someone by the name of
SITI NAMIRAH BTE SHAHAR, i have a bad impression of ITE students.. sorry pple.. don't blame me, blame her for giving you guys a very very bad impression.. And read this carefully ehk
NAMIRAH, i cant be bothered and i'm not affected by your words at all.. hahaha! your words are cheap.. they mean shit to me.. hahahh! ouch! LOL! you're just another piece of shit that neede attention.. hahah! LOL! kesian siak kau..
And try harder k pompan? oooops! aku pon pompan ah.. aku pon ader puki lar sial.. hahahahhah!
okeh, whatever about that, just cant be bothered by some bunch of pple.. So pathetic.. Breaking a friendship just because of a stupid blog issue? hahah! immature isnt it.. LOL! bdh pe bdh.. hahah! ouh well, if thats the way you want it then im fine with it.. hahahah! LOSER! ouh yar, since she say that i have forgotten my old friend(she was referring to herself.. pffft!) when i found new ones(my current poly friends and lovely classmates).. i shall do just that.. i'll just simply forget about her and get on with my life. Afterall, i'm loving my life and my
NEW FRIENDS! I LOVE THEM MUCH MORE THAN I LOVED HER! hahhaha! aawwwwhhhh!!!! does that hurt NAMIRAH? hahahha! with or without you around, i still can survive and i dont feel any difference.. Because you were never there when i needed my friends.. haha! while my current friend now, they were right by my side when i fucking wasted my tears on you.. tsktsktsk!
THEY ARE MY FRIENDS.. YOU WERE NEVER ONE OF THEM..
okeh.. i shall end this post with a rather high note, because I HAVE GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT STUPID MOTHERFUCKER ANYMORE! hahahha! ouh yar.. and i'll upload pictures duiring the weekends..Labels: BECAUSE YOU WERE JUST A PIECE OF SHIT
what we could have been, 11:17 pm.
I'm not going to be bothered nor offended by your words.. You're just being too naive.. I meant no harm then and till now.. So yeah.. I'm not going to make a fuss out of this here or wherever.. But if you think you wanna make a fuss about all this shit all over, everywhere and anywhere, then up to you lar k? aku penat dan aku malas nak layan..
So school have been very tiring.. But still, it's fun as ever.. have yet to upload the pictures.. but will do very soon.. will blog more soon.. gtg alrdy.. bye!
Labels: i miss you *INSERT NAME*
what we could have been, 5:22 pm.
First of all, i would like to congratulate my dearest cousin, Muhammad
Syafiq Danial Bin
Azhar for making it through the auditions for
anugerah earlier.. Love you
alot okeh? make the family proud yaw!!
hahah!
Okeh, so secondly, my blog will be privatised for quite sometime now as some people just cannot keep their comments to themselves..
KNNBCCB! mother never teach... stupid motherfuckers...
And thirdly, i don't wanna go school tomorrow!! i don't feel like going and my mind isn't at a stable state just yet.. Still thinking about it? FUCK! i don't know ah!
And lastly, thank you
alot to my dearest babies for cheering me on and being by my side all this while.. Thank you
alot for your effort to make me stand on my feet yet again.. But
i'm really sorry i cannot be the same old me.. Not in the time to come.. Maybe later, but i cannot promise you people anything.. Because the truth is,
i'm really having a mental and physical breakdown..
I'll try my best, but no promises will be made..
Labels: ..i don't want your explaination because i only want you to wake up realise something ever so impt, *INSERT NAME*
what we could have been, 7:22 pm.
Please don't walk away...... Please tell me you'll stay........Omg! this is really killing me.. Till when? i can't help it but to cry inside and out.. I can't stay calm.. I can't do anything right.. It's like every single minute my mind will surely think of him.. Trying my best to forgive and forget.. But i'm too hurt to do that.. It's too painful.. But at the same time, i can't hate him too.. Now, what am i suppose to do?? I can't forget him at all, even after all the shit.. I don't want to lose him.. Even if it means we'll only be friends.. okeh more than friends but not as a couple... I would rather be the way we were before all that shit happen than to be left just like that.. Now that you came back, please don't go away... Please *INSERT NAME*.. i really need you with me.. Only you can make this stupid feeling go away.. Only you can make me feel like i'm a human with feelings again.. Because the truth is, right now, you make me feel like i'm just a useless trash.... So please give me the comfort that you gave me that night..
I may not be your only one, but atleast i'm your bby, and please make that forever and always...
I LOVE YOU *INSERT NAME*.. NO MATTER WHAT I'LL STILL LOVE YOU...
Labels: please don't go bby
what we could have been, 11:12 am.
Sometimes being left in the dark might be way better than to know the hurtful truth.. Being left without any explaination might be better than to have heard an explaination which eventually will crush the heart even more..
Tell me, what would you do when you really love someone.. and that someone have been missing for like more than a month and he or she suddenly come back into your life.. You were happy because you finally get to meet him after such a long time.. But after a while, you realised that that happiness that you feel was just for a little while.. That happiness you felt earlier on ended because you heard something that you wouldn't want to know.. Something that you never knew..
Why must you fucking come back *INSERT NAME*? why must you fucking come back in my life?? I don't need your explainations.. i would rather be left in the dark not knowing anything than to know this hurtful truth.. What am i to you? a trash? which you just throw in the bin when you don't need it anymore? What am i to you? Where are all the promises? Where's your "i'll prove to you that i'm really sincere and i really do love you"?? Where the fucking hell are they? I know i told myself not to hope for you anymore.. But somehow i was walking on my feets again for the first time after one month when i saw you yesterday.. I cannot explain how happy and glad i was when i saw you smile at me, knowing that you're just alright..
You called me bby, you called me syg.. and then the very next moment you told me something that really crushed my fucking heart? And you told me because you got to know that i heard your conversation with her bestfriend.. What the fucking hell is that all about? You've been lying to me all this while.. How do you think i feel.. Yes people make mistakes.. and we as human beings have to forgive and forget.. Fucking hell yes i can forgive you but there's no way i can forget...
I'm sorry, but i just cannot hate you *INSERT NAME*.. i really cannot.. Reason because i love you...
Labels: I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT
what we could have been, 5:30 pm.
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