Sometimes being left in the dark might be way better than to know the hurtful truth.. Being left without any explaination might be better than to have heard an explaination which eventually will crush the heart even more..
Tell me, what would you do when you really love someone.. and that someone have been missing for like more than a month and he or she suddenly come back into your life.. You were happy because you finally get to meet him after such a long time.. But after a while, you realised that that happiness that you feel was just for a little while.. That happiness you felt earlier on ended because you heard something that you wouldn't want to know.. Something that you never knew..
Why must you fucking come back *INSERT NAME*? why must you fucking come back in my life?? I don't need your explainations.. i would rather be left in the dark not knowing anything than to know this hurtful truth.. What am i to you? a trash? which you just throw in the bin when you don't need it anymore? What am i to you? Where are all the promises? Where's your "i'll prove to you that i'm really sincere and i really do love you"?? Where the fucking hell are they? I know i told myself not to hope for you anymore.. But somehow i was walking on my feets again for the first time after one month when i saw you yesterday.. I cannot explain how happy and glad i was when i saw you smile at me, knowing that you're just alright..
You called me bby, you called me syg.. and then the very next moment you told me something that really crushed my fucking heart? And you told me because you got to know that i heard your conversation with her bestfriend.. What the fucking hell is that all about? You've been lying to me all this while.. How do you think i feel.. Yes people make mistakes.. and we as human beings have to forgive and forget.. Fucking hell yes i can forgive you but there's no way i can forget...
I'm sorry, but i just cannot hate you *INSERT NAME*.. i really cannot.. Reason because i love you...
Labels: I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT
what we could have been, 5:30 pm.
