I guess i'm just gonna be all emo again... haiiiix!!Feel like giving up but somehow my heart tell me to hold on..So what should i do? should i just give up and keep moving onor should i just wait and be patient? It's like a movie without any happy ending..Like a dream which end up with a nightmare.. How much longer will this take?How much longer must i keep on suffering like this...I'm not angry at YOU, i'm not even angry with or at anybody.....But the truth is i'm angry with myself... Angry because i loved you, because i trusted you,i hoped for you to be mine and i make believed that you were really the one for me..Angry because i keep on getting myself hurt and keep on hoping for the right onewhile knowing that nothing would work out and nothing is for real..Everything that you gave me was only for show, it was just for two pathetic weeks...Two pathetic weeks and i actually believed that you were really sincere and it would reallywork out this time.. How stupid can i get? how pathetic can i be?Life have been unfair towards me for quite sometime, why would i think that it wouldbe fair towards me this time?? why would i actually think that my love life would reallywork out this time.. For the umpteenth time, i'm getting myself hurt again all because of another person like you..Just one thing for sure, I'm not going to forget our first and last meeting... You gave me love thatvery night, you gave me hope and you make me feel as if i was on cloud nine..But i guess we're just not meant to be.. You were the different and i promise i will neverforget you or the moments we spent right there and then.. You were awesome and i love youfor who you are... I will stil do eventhough we're apart and won't ever be together..Thank you for helping me move on and thank you for givong me the hopes...I'm sorry for being a pain in th arse all the while we were in contact..I won't bother you again..Sekiranya ader jodoh kita, pasti akan bertemu..Seandainya memang begini kisah cinta kita, akan ku terima seadanya..Dan sekiranya bertemu engkau dan aku suatu hari nanti, pasti kan ku kenangsaat pertama aku menatap wajahmu..Sesungguhnya engkau telah mencuri hatiku, dan telah terukir namamu dihatiku ini..And to my dearest friends, if you've been trying to contact me in someway or another,you're getting through but i'm not answering or replying, I'm really sorry.. It's just not the best time..To the closer ones, I'm sure you know how to get through me, be it my mum, my sister or my homenumber.. Hope you people understand yeah??Labels: Feel like giving up....
what we could have been, 7:11 pm.
