will you ever be my only one??

2010-07-16T10:02:00.002+08:00

Have not been updating since like forever.. hahahah! guess my blogging life is over now.. been too busy with school and work and so much more.. so yeah! my fellow bloggers, i'm officially out of this blog and ain't gonna update this page of mine anymore.. so if you people miss me or following my updates in anyways(if there's any, not trying to be thick face yeah) i'm on facebook still, add me up if you want to..you can find me at tenchi_takeo@hotmail.com and im also on twitter at LynHemsworth.. so yeah.. i guess this is it..i'll see you people when i see you people.. hahahah! take care all..

LOVE,
AMALYNA❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

2010-05-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

3 MORE DAYS!!!
JYEAH BALLS!!! =D

2010-04-18T15:02:00.003+08:00

As days passes by, i realize things gets tougher and more complicated..
Allah, keep me strong..keep me strong to face all this challenges.. =(

2010-03-29T08:27:00.003+08:00

Finally back from malaysia.. I actually thought that everything was going to be alright.. actually thought that everything was going to be fine from the moment i hit back in Singapore, but i was wrong.. I was wrong all the while.

So many things just have to happen when i was finally having fun.. It didn't cross upon my mind that such thing would happen.. Yesterday afternoon, while on the way back to Uncle's place in Johor Bahru from Kampong, we almost got caught in an accident.. It was raining pretty heavily while we were on the highway.. There was a car speeding on that particular highway and that car overtooked us as we were at an average speed.. perhaps they were in a rush.. But sadly a few minutes after they overtook us, the car actually started drifting and turning and lastly crashed into the side of the highway.. Uncle almost lost the balance as he was trying to prevent our car to crash into the car infront.. We wanted to stop but we couldn't it was raining so heavily and it was on the highway plus there were 10 of us so we couldn't possibly help out.. it was a definitely terrible experience but I'm grateful enough that nothing happened to my family..

However, something else screwed up my day..my dad called from singapore and told me something that i wouldn't want to hear.. In fact, i never want to hear and it didn't cross my mind that i would hear it..though im not going to elaborate it here, I'm sure boyfriend knows what I'm talking about..I'm not blaming boyfriend, i'm not blaming anyone, but i might be blaming myself.. I know I'm not good enough, i know I'm not up to the standard to be holding this position.. But i couldn't help it.. It was out of my control.. I'm sorry, maybe it's better off this way baby.. I love you so much i can't bear seeing you hurt.. I can't do this anymore.. You can quarrel or argue with her.. but i wouldn't want you to quarrel or argue with her because of me.. I'm sorry.. just let it be.. let it rest..

Now i wished i was caught and died in that car accident that i mentioned earlier.. If only that happened, i'm sure it would be a little less painful for you my dear.. I love you so much but i have no choice..

2010-03-10T19:16:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for quite sometime i must say.. Have been very busy with work an such.. sigh.. I don't even have time to spend with my family and friends..work work work and more work... sometimes it just makes me go crazy... sigh! i feel so eeeeerrrrrrrrggggghhhh!! and finally a day off from work..

i feel so bad for not being able to make it last sunday.. sigh.. and i feel bad for not being able to spend much time with my loved ones.. but what can i do?? i need a break from all this.. sigh.. and honestly, i miss those time when i had all the free time and i can go out as and when i like.. now, having a part time job feels like having a fulltime job just because some people (shall not mention names) just refuse to help out and work.. so i'm being a kind soul here to help out and work so that the company won't go bongers! and thanks to my soft heart, i sacrificed my free time.. fuck it..

and btw, baby, im sorry.. im fucking having my stupid pms now.. hope you understand...

2010-02-23T12:57:00.002+08:00

see that girl in the pictture above?? she was the one who have been there for me.. she was the one who treated me like her own sister when i really needed one.. She was the one who consoled me when i was in my worse days.. Thank you shima.. i love you so much and i miss you so much.. but sad thing is i cannot meet you just yet!!!!!! eeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhh!!!

this is so frustrating.. so many people i miss, so little time to spend.. sigh.. i feel so miserable...pffft! tsk tsk tsk!!

and i hope you understand my situation right now..all i need now is your understanding and not your hurting harsh words..cos honestly my life is screwed enough.. please stop making it worst.. thank you very much.. i still love you though...

2010-02-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

My dearest boy, Muhd Nadzir Bin Mazlan.. Happy 18th birthday!! May all your wishes and prayers come true.. May Allah shower you with all his love and blessings..May you have a bright future ahead of you.. Now that you're wiser, please make use of your time very wisely.. I think i have alot more to tell you but i think i'll stop here for now.. As for the rest that i'm going to tell you just wait okeh?? I'll tell you personally... Hehehe! Enjoy your day while it lasts okeh?? I love you so much baby.. I'll call you soon...=)

Much loved! =)

2010-01-28T11:47:00.004+08:00

You've seriously turned into a totally different person. Like seriously.. I mean eversince then you became someone whom i don't even know anymore.. Who are you?! and where did you put the person i knew? OMG! This is like a nightmare for me.. seriously.. sigh.. How sad can this be?? *CRY*

Okeh, i'll just skip that part.. i don't wish to elaborate more.. hmmmmph.. So now let's talk about something else..

Hmmph.. To my dearest Loyang sec juniors, congrats for whatever results that you got for o'levels and congrats for the school posting results.. =) To Rachel darling, congrats for getting what you wanted.. I'm really proud of you.. =)

And to whom ever posted to RP.. hahah! see you people around.. LOL! =)

Moving on, Watched tooth fairy with shima and nadzir on tuesday.. It was awesome.. hahaha! but i still think the spy next door is better.. LOL! I just realised how much i missed brother.. hahaha! sigh.. come home soon.. =(

UT3 is coming, yet, i'm still not prepared yet.. sigh...how how how?? hmmmph.. i seriously need to buck up now before it's too late..

I NEED MOTIVATIONS!!!

2010-01-23T18:42:00.003+08:00

Hello there my dearest readers.. =) Have got not much to blog about these days. Well, that's one of the reasons why i've not been blogging much.. Another would be because i am very busy with school and work.. hahah! So, just a quick update for today..

Yesterday evening, after school, i went to downtown east to meet Mazni and Liyana..It was definitely awesome! hahaha! we had a little catching up about some stuff.. hahah! To Mazni, good luck for your school posting results yeah? i wish you all the best.. And to Liyana, good luck with year 2 in nursing.. hahah! I wonder when would be the next time we'll be meeting up.. sigh.. we still have got alot of catching up to do..

And I MISS DINIE DAYANA BTE ZULKIFLI alot!!! meet up soon sayang.... I'll make time for all of you after my UT3.. =D

Basically today, i went to work early this morning and i did bar the whole day.. Gosh! I didn't know it'd be so stressful.. hahhaha! But i survived.. =) Right now i'm tired! i feel fucking lethargic and i dont know why.. ahhah! Tomorrow would be another day at work.. opening shift! OMG! i hate working life mann! damn it.. hmmmmph!

I FUCKING NEED TO START ON MY REVISION AND BUCK UP ON MY STUDIES MANN!

2010-01-20T09:17:00.004+08:00

30 days and still counting.. =) never have i thought that i would be with this guy.. never did it crossed in my mind thatthings would turn out this way.. Hope this relationship is not like any other..

Happy one monthsary Muhd Nadzir.. I love you!! =)

k dah.. chemistry time.. =D

2010-01-19T12:37:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the pretty long hiatus.. Have been really busy with work and school and more work and more school.. hahahah! There's so much for me to update.. From the new year till now.. been more than 2 weeks now.. LOL!

Well, basically, i spent my new year eve with my LOVED! happy kan aku.. hahah! though the thought of stupid hoobastank having to conquer the whole of D'Marquee where we always have dancefloor on new year eve is just a turn off.. CB!! so we didn't get to party.. Instead, we lepaked.. hahah! from downtown to tampines and back to pasir ris again.. =)

On the 8th of January, my LOVED and myself celebrated Shafiq's legal birthday at simei.. eventhough it was somewhat a last minute thing, i think it was still awesome and it all paid off well.. =) So after celebrating, we all slacked, as usual.. and the girls had girls talk.. hahah! it was fun.. we should do it again soon.. right girls?? hahhaha!

Watched New York I Love You last thursday and i think it was somehow a waste of time.. pfffft! i dont get the whole show.. And yesterday shima, ravi, nadzir and myself watched the spy next door and it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!! it's a must watch movie.. next movie we're going to watch would be tooth fairy and that would be next week.. =) heheheh! now we're all broke.. hahaha!

Hmmmph, now I'm considering to go to Wave House this saturday.. Paulette wants to go badly, and nadzir is going.. but the thing is nadzir is going with his friends.. Me and Paulette wants to go but how? It's not possible for the both of us only to go.. i mean, the more the merrier right?? Ravi is still thinking about it and having second thoughts.. haiiiya! How paulette?? How?

moving on, today's the 19th, and one more day to go.. =)

Okeh, I MISS MY LOVED!!! meet up soon people!! =)

I'm in school now, and i'm blogging.. hahah~! bad student!! LOL! so i guess i gtg now.. will update again soon.. =)

2009-12-28T23:20:00.003+08:00

Been on a hiatus for quite a while now.. Have been really busy with work, family and friends.. Holidays is gonna end in a week.. Woah! that's fast.. hmmmph.. No more staying up late, no more going out at night.. sigh.. sad enough it's gonna end in a week.. But, ouh well, 2months holidays coming up real soon.. hahah!

Can't deny that i really miss my LOVES and my DEARESTS... meet up soon people..

I miss my baby..sigh....

i think that's about it.. I got work tomorrow and wednesday and thursday and saturday.. tsk! shit head!! k bye...

2009-12-21T21:59:00.002+08:00

Hello there readers!! =) i'm back on blogger.. hahah! like finally i have the mood to update my blog.. hmmmph.. I've got truck loads to share here.. where should i start?? hahah!

The holiday trip to Batm with my beloved family was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!! we went shopping, and more shopping and more shopping!! hahahah! had girls talk with dearest niece... good thing we shared a room.. hahah! had a wonderful time with my dearest nephew.. heheh! and also the others.. pictures have been uploaded on facebook.. =)

School holidays have been a great one for me so far.. cos apparently, i've been spending alot of my time during this holidays with my lovelies, Dinie, Hilfi, Adik, Afiq and the rest and not to forget, new friends, farhi and fino, nabil and hanis..spent time with my dearests too, Angelia, Nadz, Paulette, Shima and Ravi.. met up with nadz and shima on wednesday(16th),bussed down to changi beach and slacked.. after which, i met dinie, hilfi, adik, hanis, afiq, farhi, fino and nabil at simei.. Had an awesome night with them..

On Friday(18th) I trained down to bugis after work for shisha-ing session with dearests..met up with Paulette for dinner first and then angelia, ravi and nadz came later on.. Sad though cos shima cannot make it and Angelia had to leave early.. We had an awesome night too.. so after shisha, we walked down to iluma to take some pictures together.. and then angelia had to leave and we too left for clarke quay.. slacked around clarke quay till abt 3 and night rider-ed home.. hahaha!

On saturday(20th), I went down to ritz carlton after work for Feeqah's birthday celebration.. Stayed for awhile and made my move to meet my sister..-,- after which, met up with Paulette, Nadz and ravi due to some things.. not to be mentioned here.. =) had supper at Chjimes and we walked down the road in town aimlessly, and ended up in clarke quay again.. so we slacked at clarke quay till quite late.. Ravi left early that night.. and paulette left later.. Nadz and i decided to stay longer.. smoked, talked, chilled.. =D hahahah! k enough..

Next plan, Christmas and countdown party.. yet to be comfirmed but yeah.. i'm booked on that day.. =) hahahah! so, if you plan to go out with me, choose other dates okeh??? LOL!

and to this particular person ; do i even know you now? think again.. cos seriously, we're like strangers. to say that you're disappointed and all, how about me? i've been disappointed in you long ago, but it was because of our friendship, because of her that i put that aside.. you've changed... i guess you've found some other better people.. sigh..

*BECAUSE TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE*

2009-12-11T23:30:00.002+08:00

Ravi & Angelia missing in the above picture.

I am so gonna miss these people for the next 3 weeks.. sigh.. i really hope our friendship will last long.. Without you guys, i don't think i'd survive in RP.. like seriously.. hmmmph.. enjoy your holidays okeh people? anything, i'm just a phone call away.. =) meet up if possible.. hehehhe!

Tmrw morning till monday night i'll be away.. dont miss me okeh? heheheh! not sure if i'm gonna bring along my lappy. but even if i do, i dont think i would have the time.. or maybe i wont bring along.. however, there is a possibility that i'll serve the net there.. hahahha! see how lo.. don't miss me ah? hahahha! k2.. gtg already.. need to wake up early.. LOL! goodnight people..

ehems.. i miss you alrdy.. booohoooo~!

2009-12-08T13:04:00.005+08:00

You promised you'll come back.. You promised you won't leave me again.. But why are you twisting your words now? i miss you.. i miss those times when we had so much fun together, smoke, drink, karaoke and sing our hearts out.. breaking the light sticks every now and then when we are feeling down.. where are you now? i need you with me... i want you to be with me when i need you.. i really do miss those times..

I still remember how much i hated you when you first came back after three years of disappearing. But you didn't give up.. you tried to win my heart and you showed me how much you loved me..soon, we got closer to each other as days goes by.. we were like glue.. mama said we're like twins, cannot part from each other.. When i started to show you my love for you, why did you leave? i just need to know the reason cos as far as i am concern, there wasn't any conflicts that happened at home.. so why??

You must be asking why i suddenly called you last night, crying.. I drank.. yes i promised i wont drink without you but i just needed something to heal my heart.. i need to let it out.. and im sure you know i won't let it out with a stable mind.. where were you?

now i'm really confused.. i want you but i know i can't have you.. it's too precious, i can't let it go..

2009-11-27T21:47:00.002+08:00

Behind every smile, there will always be sorrow.. Behind every joy, there will always be sadness hidden.. Just like today, everyone put a big smile on their faces. Aidiladha, another celebration to give thanks to Allah for what we have.. Another day where all my relatives will come over to my place to visit my grandmother. every single one were present.. everyone except two.. my brother and my sister.. Brother is in china, sad enough he cannot be here with us.. but all of us were touched when he actually took the intiative to skype with us.. As for my sister.. sigh.. we have got no freaking idea where she is.. and she didnt ecen take any initiative to call or ask how our health was.. instead, she called me to get her passport.. her fucking passport cos she is going for a holiday to bali next mth. wtf?! what is this.. i feel so angry, i feel so sad.. she have got the cheek to go to bali when we are all thinking of her.. fuck ass!!!!!!how should i react? i cannot bring myself to tell my mum abt this.. i just cannot see her hurt again.. i'm so frustrated.. i need someone with me right now...

2009-11-17T11:00:00.005+08:00

FUCK YOU GIRL! SERIOUSLY FUCK YOU!! ouh.. or maybe not... cos yours are too lose that no other guys would wanna fuck you... go get a life... cb! and please keep your comments to yourself.. you are nobody to judge people.. go make yourself right first before you put judgement on people.. fucker! self-centred fucker.. only think of yourself and not how other feels.. i regreted knowing you seriously.. i think i was out of my mind getting to know you.. eeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwww!!!!!!! i'm disgusted.... and i feel like puking right into your fucking ugly face... go fuck off okeh?pffft! you're such a waste of my time.. freaking white bitch...

sendiri makan chili sendiri yg rase pedas.. if anyone of you who'll be reading this actually think that i'm talking about you above, just so you know i dont owe you any apology.. cos seriously, you're not worth it...

2009-11-15T18:59:00.002+08:00

Been occupying myself with alot of mathematics, school, and work for the past week. Had a very hard time getting people out of my head.. i hate this feeling.. FML!!

Work today was okeh.. boring.. i almost fell asleep standing.. pffft! and we were planning about what to wear for christmas spirit.. hahah! thought of making a miniature santa hat on our own.. LOL! christmas tree is up.. more decos to go.. have yet to think about what present to buy.. cb! the hardest part is that the present have got to be unisex.. tsk! but i don't think it matter that much cos well, the guys at T3D are somehow feminin. hahah! k skip..

i miss dancing alot.. watched dinie's practice for dance explosion.. the crew was awesome.. i wanna dance damn badly.. booohooo~!

I miss Michelle Lu!! hahah! random much... and i miss Fidtria.. Date with Fidtria on the 29th.. Michelle!! when wanna go watch movie together???? pay coming!! hahahah!

k i miss someone also... wont mention the name here.. FML!! get out of my head la wahlao!! how to stop thinking of him?? tell me tell me!!! errrrgggghhhh~! -,-

okeh.. school tmrw.. lazy!! bio some more.. fuck the faci mann! petition please?????????

okeh angelia darling.. updated.. =D see you tmrw..

2009-11-07T23:03:00.003+08:00

havent been blogging for quite sometime now.. was very busy.. KIRANA & RETREAT PICS not uploaded, school, peranakan festival coming up, school, work, school, work.. so tiring!! well, okeh, i'll admit that i am trying to keep myself busy due to some personal reasons.. pffft. k whatever..

moving on.. played in the rain on thursday with Liza and Zak.. had so much fun!! and was drenched and i was freezing in the library.. But i guess it was all worth.. i walked in the rain, wash away my tears and shower myself with happiness.. Eventhough my heart is as hard as a rock now, i'm still trying..

yesterday was another awesome day.. had breakfast with shima at kfc, went in to class during second meeting, and miraclely i understood the problem statement.. heheh! *GRINS* went to causeway point with haiping, nadz, shima, nadya, angelia and paulette to buy primal's birthday cake.. hazelnut chocolate cake.. AWESOME!!! hahahah! so surprised primal with the birthday cake and yeah, everything ended normally.. blabla...

after school went down to tampines dome to accompany dinie to her dance practice shafiq came later and hilfi joined us again after work.. OMG! i just realised i missed dancing so the very much... saded.. slacked, laughed, eat, talked with eqa, fizy dinie, blabla.... headed down to simei as usual, adik joined us,.. and with the feeling of tak puas hati cos i missed dance so much i danced with dinie.. hehehe! and i was sweating like a pig for the first time after so long!! i miss dance i miss dance i miss dance!!! hahahah! then played taiti for awhile and then home.. heheh! tiring but AWESOME!!!

today, morning work till 430 then headed down to nenek's place in hougang.. bored to death then headed to ntuc at whitesands.. after that home.. i miss mummy.. hehehe!

okeh.. tmrw not working.. last minute joanna tell me no need work.. wooohooo~! power or what.. so next working day will be thursday,. yay!! hahah! pemalas sia lyn.. tsk3!

heheh! okeh,.. thats about it.. bye..

2009-11-06T00:44:00.001+08:00

MOVING ON...

2009-11-01T12:15:00.002+08:00

Now i know the truth.. The real truth and everything that you have been keeping to yourself and your life diary.. I really didn't expect you to love me so much that you couldn't forget me.. it thought whatever you told me was not true.. But i thought wrong.. every single thing that you told me was very true indeed..How am i suppose to leave you now? knowing everything that happened throughout the whole year that we separated? I can't bear to leave now that i know how true your love is..I thought i could make a difference.. i promised you to stay this time.. but how am i suppose to do that if she doesn't want to back out either? I mean i don't want to be called selfish, after all, she loves you.. I'm not saying that i don't but i can feel how hurt she feels loving someone who loves someone else not her.. How am i suppose to let go now? remember the quote, if you love someone let him/her go, if she comes back she/he is yours forever, if she/he doesn't it was never meant to be.. I let you go once.. And you came back.. what does that mean? but now, i have to let you go again.. will you come back again? How am i suppose to feel right now.. i don't want to let you go again.. I don't want to lose you again.. But i really don't know how i am suppose to deal with this.. I thoughteverything will be different now.. but im wrong.. she still doesnt want to let you go.. how how how? i'm really speechless.. i really don't know what to do..i really don't want to let you go again this time, but i have no choice.. i love you....

2009-11-01T00:47:00.002+08:00

sorry this will be another emo post.. sorry dinie, but i'm just letting out how i feel here cos apparently, i can't let it out with my own voice..so here it goes..

Last saturday, i thought i'd be the most happiiest girl on earth for the rest of my life when i saw him.. But i thought wrong.. everything were beautiful only for a few days, and then, things started to get ugly.. the truth is ugly.. yes..if only i know shit will happen, i wouldn't bring myself into this.. but then again, i followed my heart..it hurts really badly that i couldn't control even a drop of my tear..but now, after tomorrow, i promise my heart won't ache anymore..because tmrw will be a new day, and tmrw my heart will be harder than rock and i'll bury it deep and far where nobody cannot see or even find it..becaause tmrw i choose to forget.. and tmrw i'll let go.. let go because i give up.. give up with love and relationships..i'm sick and tired of being hurt..i love you but this love can never be fulfilled.. let me bury this feelings deep and far and i'll never ever reveal it.. i'm letting you go again.. i'm sorry.. be happy with her and i'll be happy for you.. forgive me for loving you so much that it hurts and i'll forgive you for crushing my fairytale dream..goodbye baby, i love you........

2009-10-27T08:30:00.003+08:00

This is not gonna be an emo post.. i just fell in love with the lyrics of this song.. hmmmmph.. k dah.. blog psl nak post ni je.. patheic sia amalyna... i really don't know what have gotten into me mann.. cb btol.... k la k la.. i go study k?? heheheh! *HUGS&KISSES*

2009-10-25T20:08:00.002+08:00

I miss you oh so much... Having to look at you just makes me miss you even more... Everytime our eyes met, i tried to hide, but i guess i couldn't.. I thought i was over you but i was wrong.. i thought you're happy now, but you're not... Why oh why do we have to meet again? i tried to hold my tears, i tried to smile and look happy, but you saw every single thing. you told me you were glad to see me, and you told me you wanted to hug and kiss me badly.. i want to do the same too, but i couldn't.. I miss being in your arms and i miss the smell you always had.. i miss every single thing about you.. Reminisces by reminisces, it have been coming to me non stop.. how do i put a stop to this?? i miss you so much... so much that i'm listening to our song...sigh...

2009-10-24T23:46:00.003+08:00

I thought i was over you.. But i thought wrong.. The moment i saw you, my heart started to ache and soon after it was broken.. I'm sure you saw the hurt when you look into my eyes.. I'm sure you know how much i missed you.. But why? why can't i just move on while you're happy.. i may not be crying physically but i am deep down inside... it hurts..

Muhammad Firdaus Bin Omar, i miss you but i know its just not meant to be...

2009-10-20T20:16:00.003+08:00

Blogger is being a BITCH!! i cannot upload any pictures.. CB!

k skip that. school have been fun.. but im getting really tired and shagged. How long more till the end of semester?? boooohooo~!

I miss my people!!! i miss LOVED alot.. And i really mean ALOT!! i can't wait to meet them again... sigh...

I cant get my lab coat!! FUCK IT!! it's out of stock.. damn it!!

Something happened.. hahah! not gonna elaborate here...

i miss you but too bad i dont like being ditched by you all the time.. am not gonna be bothered anymore...pfffft..

E***E? are you like serious? but you seem to be too good to be true... sigh...

2009-10-13T13:31:00.003+08:00

I am damn pissed off today, but i am not going to let that feeling bring me down.. am not gonna elaborate what happen here, cos i dont see the point..

Moving on, i skipped class yesterday. biology just suck to the core..okeh not the module, but the facilitator just suck.. So i went to causeway point to catch a movie with benson and his classmates.. hahah! we watched the deadly tsunami!! i still couldn't believe that the movie actually brought me to tears.. it was damn touching right through the ending.. I wonder how it would be like if i was the one who had to go through the tsunami.. now im glad that im living in singapore..

okeh presentation now.. actually got alot more to write, but later than can okeh? got HOT TOPIC GOING AROUND IN CLASS OI!! hahha!

2009-10-12T11:44:00.002+08:00

My brother actually bought this for me!! heheheh! im such a happy girl.. thank you so much dear brother, i love you to the max!! heheh! not only for this, but i love you for showering me with love.. wooohoooo~!

Okeh, moving on, i still went out with my LOVED despite being sick!.. hahaha! stubborn girl right?? LOL! Raya outing on saturday was more than awesome.. first house was at feeqah's it was alrdy so kecoh then.. LOL! and so we camwhored and everything else.. classic moments never fail to occur each and everytime we meet.. hahah! like i said before, this people never failed to put smiles on my face..I love them till the end..

Sunday was a blast to.. though only a few of us turned up due to work and such, it was still the bomb.. We went to bowl at SAFRA tampines, laughed, cocked and everything that we could do to make each other happy... After bowling, the initial plan was to drop by at feeqah's workplace to give her a surprise.. but plans changed right? we slacked at the usual place, simei cc, and laughed and played games and all the belo-ness were revealed... hahahah! funny sia... i'm still waiting for the pictures and videos to be uploaded in facebook.. hahahha! I can't wait for the next outing.. im looking forward to it.. and i swear im gonna spend my time with them frequently mann.. i mean, how can you not when the company is AWESOME!! hahhaha! kankankan??

And today is just another mundane monday.. i hate mondays from now onwards.. REASON?? because i hate my bio faci.. he suck to the core you know... he gave me a D for no fucking reason!! i mean i stayed in class and do my work with extra effort and extra hard work, plus i have not much knowledge in biology and still get a fail grade?? might as well i partial and not do anything and get a fail grade right?? which do you prefer?? hard work and fail or slack and get the same result??CB ah this faci.. seriously... and so, im partialing with paulette.. =) watching movie later... heheh! i think?? LOL! see how lo...

I need motivation mann!!!! this cannot go on anymore.. i need my gpa... damn you bio faci!! cb!!!!!!

k dah... i'm done.. bye! will update again soon...

2009-10-08T08:21:00.004+08:00

Never in my life things like this happen. But then, i guess it just did.. It was like a ray of light shining through my sorrow life. I never thought i would accept it this fast.. but, there was just something that was urging me and telling me that that's the one.. I hope i didn't make the wrong move..

In school now.. k bye..

2009-10-05T22:49:00.002+08:00

First day of school, start of semester two. New, class, new classmates, new environment new modules.. Awkward but somehow, got along quite well with Paulette, and Dillon.. and of cos one and only, HAIPING!!! hahahahha! gangster ehk? hahah! TAN! okeh2..

Moving on, i went to gamelan and supposedly we end at 7 but we decided to end early cos we wanted to watch a Balinese Gamelan & Dance performance by orphans from Bali at LaSelle Arts School. Damn good i tell you.. It was fucking effective that me, Zul, B, and Zaff were scared to death when one of the song featured a dance from their dance master, being an old man.. He was wearing a mask and it seemed so real.. The way he moved and his facial, though we can't really see, it was like so real and scary i almost cried.. hahaha! But overall, it was AWESOME!!!!

After the performance, we talked to the orphans and had fun.. Took some pictures and joke around with them.. At the same time polished our bahasa indonesia.. hahah! it was cool.. And they invited us personally to visit them in Bali at their orphanage.. They gave us their home name you know.. haha.. PANTI ASUHAN WIDIYASI 5 DI BALI.. hahah! here we come!! lol! i was so damn semangat that i actually went online to check how much the flight tickets costs.. hahah! surprisingly, it's damn cheap!! hahah! air asia dok.. shiok sia! i hope we can go...

Miss them alrdy.. haha! the one with shades the most ehk ehk ehk?? hahah! gatal ehk... Pictures will be uploaded soon.. lappy giving me problems again.. tsk! well, tmrw's another day.. hmmmmph.. bye now..

I MISS YOU LA.. I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I REALLY DO.. SEND ME A TEXT OR GIVE ME A CALL SOON PLEASE? god, why am i still hoping? tsk!

2009-10-05T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hey2.. just dropping by to wish the following three people a very happy birthday..

To Yana bby, Happy sweet 17TH!
To Fazli Bin Wahab, Happy sweet 17th!
And also to Muhammad Firdaus Bin Omar, Happy 24th Birthday!

All of you might not read this post of mine.. But i'm just posting it cos i know it's the thoughts that counts.. May all you wishes for today come true, May Allah shower you with all his love and blessings.. Take care..

2009-10-04T19:23:00.003+08:00

I'm having this feeling all over again.. A feeling of lost, anger, sadness, disappointment and pretty much everything else which i can't describe in words.. I am not a toy, nor am i a litter which you can play with or throw as and when you like.. I'm a human being, with feelings.. Let me repeat this again.. WITH FEELINGS!! Yes it was my mistake to have been into this too much, but you could have be a little more nice rather than heartless creature right?? i know symphaty doesn't counts but it was hope that you gave..

That's it! i am not going to hope anymore! Whether you wanna continue this anot, because i'm tired of playing this game.. Thank you for the memories anyway.. thank you alot..

2009-10-01T19:56:00.003+08:00

Why am i missing you? i know i'm not suppose to.. I know you're just too good to be true.. please get out of my head please....

I know this is sooo damn fucking wrong... but i really don't know why i'm missing you.. sigh.. you're just another blowing wind passing by..sigh...

Moving on.. Yesterday outing to Mr Shah's and Ms Shahidah's cribs with dancers was awesome.. eventhough we went to only two houses it was still fun.. 10 org dah mcm 100 org sia! hahaha! And and Mr Shah's cookings was awesome!! damn nice i tell you..thank you Mr Shah for the awesome food...

After slcking at Mr shah's, we head down to Ms Shahidah's stayed on till Gerimis di hati end.. hahah! bastard ehk?? LOL! and then homed..pictures will be uploaded soon okeh on facebook.. wait k nisah?? hahah! penat ah..

Today's work was okeh.. only problem is that i was too sleepy then.. hahah! 930 have to reach work le.. haha! im sure you know im not an early riser.. LOL! so i was working with nth in my head.. hahahah! and i almost missed the stop i was sppose to alight when going home..haha! funny or what...

okeh i think that's it.. next outing will be next saturday.. *kening naek2* hahah!

dier msg la!! hehehe!

2009-09-28T00:16:00.003+08:00

FUCK YOU GIRL! SERIOUS SHIT FUCK YOU!!!!
GET YOURSELF A FUCKING LIFE AND STOP BLAMING OTHERS ALL THE TIME EVEN WHEN IT WASNT THEIR FAULT.. SOMETIMES YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MAKE THE MISTAKES SO STOP BLAMING OTHERS OKEH POMPAN? CB! AND STOP MAKING OTHERS LOOK BAD WHILE TRYING TO COVER UP YOUR OWN FLAWS. JUST ADMIT THAT YOU SUCK TO THE CORE.... KNNBCCB! GO LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND MAKE SOME REALISATION FOR YOURSELF!

2009-09-26T22:34:00.003+08:00

Outing with LOVED...(Feeqah missing though.. =( )

Outing with my lovelies was awesome! fun as usual.. sadly feeqah wasn't around to join us... No worries k baby? we're going out again on the 10th.. *kening naek2* hahah! Can't wait.. heheh! to those people whom we havent got the chance to go to your houses, we are really sorry.. we will Insya'Allah visit your houses the next outing.. =)

work will resume tmrw.. =( and i just realised i would have to work for the whole freaking week except for monday and wednesday.. cbcb btol! tsk! but what to do.. it was never a choice to work.. i'm gonna be drop beat this weekend...

okeh.. pictures uploaded and tagged on facebook.. check it out there.. gtg.. need to rest alot.. tmrw will be a very long hour for me.. tsk!

okeh, bye..

2009-09-24T14:19:00.003+08:00

Happy Hari Raya Again!! =) hehehe! Hari Raya outing with family was fun.. I love it to bits! hahahahha! Now i can't wait for the outing with my lovelies.. Outing with Dancers coming up soon.. Outing with LOVED coming up after Dinie's promo 2.. All the best baby.. =)

Started work yesterday.. it was okeh i guess.. As per normal.. Having to work long hours is such a pain in the ass you know.. but what to do.. hahahah! Money matters mann... Working again today, pffft.. i'm damn tired! tsk! but i've got no choice.. tonight, after work, i'm gonna sleep as much as i can cos tmrw i'm gonna work my ass off for 11 hours straight.. poor me.. booohooo~! All thanks to "not enough man power" .. damn it....

Okeh, i guess thats all for now.. pictures from the past few days will be uploaded in my facebook account... =)

Love2, okeh bye....

2009-09-20T22:34:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

I would like to wish all my family & friends and also to those who knows me a very happy hari raya. Selamat hari raya, maaf zahir & batin.. Klau ader salah & silap Lyn, tolong maafkan.

Okeh moving on, first day of syawal is always a bitter sweet one. Another year to remember indeed. But this year, it's a little bit different from any other years. Usually on the first day, my family and I will not go out for visiting, as all my relative will come over to my place and slack at my place cos my granny is staying with me. However, due to somethings, we did this year. Every single year without fail, we will go out as a very big groups.. fun huh? hahah!

Well today was kind of fun but very tiring.. Many pictures were taken and lots of laughters were bursted, forgiveness were seeked and given. May this year's Syawal be a memorable one. Pictures will come when jalan raya is completed.. heheh! ouh ya, will not be blogging for a few days.. because my lappy is giving problems again.. today is exeptional cos i'm using my brother's mac.. hehehe! curi time skejap.. hahahah! okeh gtg now.. have to turn in early cos tomorrow will be another day of jalan-ing raya! heheh! fun fun fun and more fun...

Ouh ya.. last but not least, i would like to dedicate a short message to someone very special(though it's kinda complicated) :

Dear Shahrul,

I would like to wish you a very happy 18th birthday. May Allah shower you with all his love and blessings.. May this raya bring you and your family happiness.. I pray for your happiness with Ikah and i just want you to know that i do care.. Take good care of yourself my dear friend..

okeh thats all for now..

Love, Lyn

2009-09-17T00:51:00.002+08:00

Pay day is always sweeeeeet! hahaha! i'm very very very happy today.. ot because i got my pay, but i've got no reason.. hahah! weird? i know.. hahah! but i feel good.. =) yeap.. i feel very good indeed, despite having my menses.. haha! i wonder what have gotten into me.. LOL! hmmph.. work today was very slacky... not many customers also = bad sales... hah! tried the hazelnutella milkshake.. damn nice i tell you! hahaha! no cakes for today.. so sad.. =( but brought some pastries home.. hmmmph.. nvm.. tomorrow got cakes to bring home! yay! heheheh! cheesecakes yumyum! hahah! i hope tmrw wont be too busy.. and i hope time flies fast tmrw.. hehehe! me, anabel and vanessa were bored just now, so we did this.. hahahah! tadaaa! lame i know.. but what to do.. no customer to attend what.. hahaha!

okeh bye!

2009-09-16T15:27:00.005+08:00

errrrrrrrr, i think i've got no much time to entertain you.. so you figure out yourself okeh?? i've got much better things to do than to entertain you and your irritatingness and your hypocrisy.. yeap.. i've said it.. you may be reading this, you might not be bothered to read this.. but when you read this i know you'll be in self-denial.. but i wont give a damn.. because i know i deserve better.. and please, i've got nothing to lose.. my life have been in a bliss and it have been much better without you around... though i was disappointed before, im not now.. because i don't think that you're worth it..

okeh bye.. i wanna go to work.. =)

2009-09-15T17:45:00.002+08:00

Have been off from work for a few days now.. But i have been working at my second home.. Yes! making kuih for hari raya!! God! my body is aching so badly...tiring you know.. sigh.. luckily got my dear boy to make me laugh and smile in between.. see what he did? he messed up the whole place! RAIYAN!! hahahaha! and today, is my day off from everything.. *GRINS* hahah! and i really mean everything.... thanks to menses, i can't fast today.. cb! of all times to come, must be the last few days of ramadhan.. sigh...

okeh, moving on, last sunday there was someody who text me.. at about 4 plus.. this person called Elfy Hafiyan.. If thats even your real name ehk sucker.. pfffft! i wonder how much lamer this kind of pple can get you know.. well, moving on with my story, this particular person text me saying that he got my number from bus number 12 and he wants to get to know me.. pfffft! this kind of lame "i get your number from the bus" kind of thing is so 10 years ago mind you.. OMG! it's so obvious that you're pranking la kan... you think i'm like those desperate girls who are dying to get a boyfriend or what sia?? OMG! please ehk.. thats so the minah rep.. pffffft! who ever you are, be it ou are reading this or not, whether you know me or not, i beg of you to GET A FUCKING LIFE OF YOUR OWN.. AND PLEASE BOY, OR GIRL WHICH EVER GENDER YOU MAY BE, GROW UP... thank you very much....

haha! really that incident made me laugh my ass out.. like seriously man.. if i were to be a 12, or 13 or even 14 yearold girl, or a desperate minah, maybe i wold fall for your words la kan... got my number from bus number 12 huh? ahahahah! pathetic la deyh! and the best part is that this particular person have got the cheap to call me a cheap bitch? hahah! just because i didnt entertain the msg.. pfffft.. pathetic pathetic...

hahahaha! dah la.. i'm so over it.. merepek tak layan ehk..pffffft!

okeh so, before i end of this post, i would like to dedicate something to two pple...

Happy belated birthday to Baba!
May Allah shower you with all his love and blessings..
Semoga murah rezeki... =D see you on sunday Baba!

And to Dinie Dayana,
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DEAREST!!
MAY ALLAH SHOWER YOU WITH ALL HIS LOVE AND BLESSINGS!
MAY YOU SUCCEED IN YOUR FUTURE ENDEAVOURS....
SEE YOU SOON DEAR.. MISS YOU!!=D

tomorrow work... tsk! -,-

2009-09-13T00:50:00.004+08:00

Work was fine today.. busier than normal, but still can cope.. =) but one thing about work i cannot tahan like seriously... STANDING FOR LONG HOURS!! hahahah! i got my legs all aching... i feel like plucking out my legs for awhile.. haha! k thats so stupid and random..

Moving on, after tiring work, i went down to meet mummy, daddy, cik ana, bak jang and cousins at pasir ris mrt and then we trained down to paya lebar.. Breakfast at Kampon Chai Chee Restaurant, the one at city plaza, and then off we go to bazaar.. Mak Ngah & Baba (myfavourite uncle & aunty) joined us later on.. *KENING NAEK2* Like finally geylang bazaar was so lively and filled with people shopping for their Raya needs.. Walked around, bought our needs until cannot tahan already, so we went of to the mrt station, and trained down to pasir ris.. Overall, Geylang was awesome.. =D Two thumbs up...

Okeh, i think thats it for today.. finally i have the excitement to celebrate raya.. =) I'll update again soon.. bye.. =) lovelove...

2009-09-11T03:07:00.004+08:00

Something i think you should actually read girls.. i know you know who you are.....

Dear girls who i used to be very close to,

We started off as strangers, and then we became friends, later we became sisters, and suddenly we ended it off as strangers again.. Sounds cliche? but this is the fact.. It wasn't my fault i had to work all the time right?? it wasn't my choice to be drifted apart... But every single time i see you guys, you seemed happy and it was like as if i didn't matter.. With or without me around you still had fun.. Sometimes i feel left out, but i kept quiet.. If you were really my friends, you would have noticed.. Ouh but i know you noticed.. You just didn't care.. And now you make it seem like it was my fault? Wow! well done.. do you know how hurting it is?? do you know how tiring it was to juggle school, work, family and friends all at the same time?? do you know how tough it was juggling my work commitment and having to please you?? OMG! if only you had the heart to stop and think right at that moment, how hurt i was, how much i was crying deep inside... But no, you didn't even bother... Don't act as if you cared if you really don't... Don't tell me you miss me when you really don't.. I thought you were really my true friends.. But i guess i was wrong... you didn't even bother understanding my situation, instead you made it worse.... Don't make it seem like it was my fault.. really, cause i don't think it was... ego? i don't think so... you make me have this kind of mindset... maybe it was never meant to be la kann?? don't be angry when you read this... cos I'm only stating the truth...

Woah, after so long of keeping this and bottling it up deep down inside, I'm finally letting it out...you know who you are and i know you'll be reading this... It's up to you now what you want to think of me.. I don't care, that's because you don't either and i don't find it worth it....oooops... sorry, but it's true...

Thank you so much girls... for all the memories and fun time... I think it just have to end.. I'm sick and tired of being left out... I'm sick and tired of listening to your never ending stories of what you did the day before... I'm sick and tired of your loving hugs and kisses right in front of me.... Jealousy?? no.. i don't name it jealousy, cos i know i deserve much better.....

Now I've said it all... last words for you, THANK YOU....and don't tell me you miss me cos i know you don't mean it....

Hahahaha! it's ugly but it's the truth.. i think i wanna watch that movie.. hahah! =) k bye...

2009-09-09T23:41:00.003+08:00

It seems like we're strangers...

2009-09-06T19:58:00.003+08:00

Having my cousins and their parents sleeping over at my place this weekend.. =) lots of fun indeed having the small kids around.. =) Made a total of 5 types of cookies within less than two days.. wooohoo~! achievement! hahaha!

Work today was as usual.. quite busy but manageable.. yeap.. i think thats all for now.. Gonna continue making more cookies, the all time favourite chocolate chip cookies.. =) *GRINS*

k bye...

2009-09-05T02:22:00.002+08:00

Deleted the previous post... I realised i posted it due to anger.. duhh~! yes i'm still pissed.. I just can't stand it la kan.. But what to do.. sigh.. I hope me and mother can continue being patient about this.. Brother doesn't know about it, and i shall keep quiet for now.. i guess??

Work was okeh, but very tiring as usual.. pffft! i hate doing closings! especially when there are some stubborn customers who are super annoying who still wanna come in when we are already having our last order.. tsk! you want, you go downstairs at the arrival there la... there no closing... haiiiiya... irritating souls..

okeh skip that, other than the workload, i think everything is okeh..

God i cant sleep again!! tsk! k bye...

2009-09-03T23:50:00.004+08:00

After about one whole month of not meeting up with dinie and feeqah.. k part feeqah bedek.. hhahah! and most importantly, after so freaking long of not meeting namirah, i finally get to meet them today.. =D met them up for breakfast.. breakfast at long john and then walked around bazar to look for feeqah's balls.. hahahah! which she calls TAKO PACHI... it's tako yaki my dear.. hahaha! i dont know how the hell she get that name.. LOL!

okeh, and then we walked back to the mrt station and off to simei.. as usual, we lepaked.. while namirah met someone, the three of us lepaked at the cc.. classic things happened.. hahahh! i shall not mention here eh dinie?? hahahah! omg! i miss those times when we used to be so free, lepak almost everyday and all.. sigh..

i hope to see them again soon.. well, next time with the guys too perhaps.. Dinie's birthday coming up.. celebrating with the usuals i guess??

okeh, thats all for now.. tmrw is another day at work.. damn! i'm gonna do closing.. shit! good thing im doing with macey and ulyses.. wont be so boring.. =) bye! =)

2009-08-29T15:28:00.002+08:00

I say I hate you but I don't, I try to hurt you but I can't, it's hard to hate someone who has been the best thing that has ever happened to them.

It seems like i'm not part of you anymore.. Yes it hurts, but i've got no other choice... People come and go... You're just like the passing cloud... Bidding you goodbye might not be easy, but i guess i have got no choice... You'll be fine without me.. You've got each other...

2009-08-27T12:32:00.001+08:00

Some people come into our lives and leave footprints on our hearts and we are never ever the same

I'm gonna miss W45G!! sigh.. In fact i'm already missing them.. Time flies by so fast.. Without me knowing it, it's already the end of semester 1.. Soon, i will not even realise that it's the end of 3 years.. Damn! I can't imagine what it'll be like at the end of 3 years...

Moving on, I'm rotting at home right now, I don't know what to do... Boring! How i wish cousin was still around to keep me company.. How i wish sister was here by my side lisyening to my never ending crappings.. sigh... Vacations can be boring at times huh?

Will be working tomorrow.. -,- How i wish i didnt have to work... but i have got no choice.... pfffft!

It's been 6 days since we first started fasting.. So fast 6 days already... Hahaha! I don't know why, but i have a mixed feelings going on.. LOL! excited cos i did not really celebrate Hari Raya last year due to o levels, i'll get to go out with my family and friends all i want this year and i can just have fun without worrying about any exams or what so ever.. But i'm also feeling the opposite, can't really find the word to describe this feeling.. Firstly because i don't know if sister would be around, secondly because i am working (i hope Alison and Joanna would give me a chance please.. i dont want to work on weekends),thirdly i don't know if the plan to go out with my friends will work out since we are all in different schools now.. hmmmph! Well, i think we'll just wait and see okeh? but i still hope i dont need to work during hari raya can?? I wouldn't want to celebrate hari raya at TCC.. -,-

Ouh, i almost forgot, HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY ADQ!! AND HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO YOU AND QAMARUL... LAST LONG OKEH?? LOVE YOU!

2009-08-26T22:41:00.003+08:00

I MISS YOU!!! I MISS YOUR CRAPS, I MISS YOUR BLURNESS..
COME BACK PLEASE?? I MISS YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST JUN AN!!
MAY GOD SHOWER YOU WITH ALL HIS LOVE AND BLESSINGS!
TAKE CARE.. AND RMBR, I'M JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZURA TOO....

2009-08-25T19:49:00.006+08:00

To my favorite teacher
Told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush
Who I thought I really loved
To the guys I've missed
And the girls we've kissed
Where are you now?

To my ex-best friends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite bands
And sing alongs in my car
To the face I see in my memory
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
'Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved
Didn't show it enough
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
'Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know
I won't forget you

To the ones who came
Who were there from the start
To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear
I'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
'Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you
I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

I dedicate this song to my beloved classmates.. It have been fifteen whole weeks that we knew each other.. The friendship built, the fun we had together, the laughter we shared, the shit we've gone through together and the tears we teared earlier today... I will never forget each and everyone of you.. To those who have my number, i am only a phone call, or an sms away, to those who don't i'm just a click away from your msn window..

And to my beloved cousin, do know that i am just a phone call away okeh? if you need someone to talk to or study with or just wanna go out with me just give me a call okeh?? i will definitely miss having you around, studying with you and zul till late at night under the void deck... If you wish to sleep over at my place just come okeh, my house will always be open for you.. One of the days we'll meet up to go to the bazar okeh?? the 3 of us.. =)

And to Ms shaheedah, thank you so much for the advices that you gave earlier.. It really open up my mind and heart.. I really appreciate it..

Walking down memory lane of Loyang Secondary school was really a heart felt and touching one.. Had a conversation with Mr Soh, and a very long talk with Ms Shaheedah.. Saw people whom i reall didnt want to.. Well, somehow memories came flashing back in my mind when i stepped into the school earlier.. Feeqah, next monday okeh?? hahah! =D

Communication UT was the best way to end the whole of UT3 and semester 1. I was glad i cold kick it awesome.. =)

Okeh, i guess that's about it now..bye..

To the two people whom i have been really close to the whole of 15 weeks, i love you girls, but somehow my gut feelings tells me that things can never be the same again.. Trust me, i didn't ask for all this to happen in my life.. While you two are having a hell lot of fun, i'm being left out.. It's unfair for me but i know i can pull through.. In case you both havent noticed how qite i have been these days.. Thanks for the whole lot of fun and laughter, the memories of the 3 of us together, i will never forget.. I love you girls..

2009-08-22T20:41:00.000+08:00

dahulu engkau berikan cinta
mengapa kini engkau berubah
manakah janji akan setia menanti.
jikalau engkau tak lagi cinta
katakan saja aku tak kisah
dari kau terus membuatku menunggu..

Have been working for 3 days straight. tiring indeed, having to jugle studies and work at the same time.. UT3is not really having at all.. Having my beloved cousin sleeping over is of much fun.. at least there's someone to talk to at night.. hahaha! ad besides that i have the privilege of lepaking with him downstairs like how i used to when sis was around.. =)

Today marks the first day of Ramadhan.. I'm glad i can complete the day without much hindrance.. Well, nothing much except for having Joanna to scold me the whole time i was working.. -,- irritating much... I just got to know that many staff have been quiting because of her, and thatshe is only nice to important people.. CB la... she's lucky enough i was fasting.. wahlao!! heart ache sia...Besides, she's not even the real store manager anyway..pfffft. she's only under training and she's so arrogant.. such a turn off... -,-

Moving on, to add on to the miserable day at work, i just had to turn at the traffic light while i was on the way home.. double heart ache!! i saw FIFI!! shit mann! first day of Ramadhan and i saw him?? eeeeerrrrgggghhhh! I can't deny the fact that e did came across my mind while i was in the bus listening to a song on my ipod... *GRUNTS* nvm.. i shall not let that spoil my mood..

Cousin is terawih-ing with his friends... He asked me to tag along.. I really want to but my feets are killing me... sigh.. maybe tmrw okeh?? I think i'll be going to study with cousin and zul later on under the void deck... =)

I guess i'll end it here..k bye...

2009-08-19T23:59:00.003+08:00

I don 't get it.. I mean it's not m fault i cannot spend much time with you.. It's not my fault i have to work my ass off just to help my mum financially.. It's not my fault i am not as free as you.... I'm not complaining or what so ever, but i just dont get it.. I mean can't you like compromise and understand my freaking situation?? i mean i need to work its not that i work for my own fun and pleasure.. i need to work because i want to help my mum.. sigh... can you please just spare a thought for me... just once.. and compromise.. i mean afterall, i''m sure you would want to spend some time with me just like how i am yearning to spend time with you... sigh.. i hope to see you really soon..

2009-08-17T12:39:00.004+08:00

All good things have come to an end... It's all over la ehk..
I'm not going to saying anything already....
Just take it as if i'm invisible, take it as if i don't ever exist...
Bid you goodbye may not be easy.. but i guess i have got no choice....

2009-08-16T11:45:00.003+08:00

Ku Menangis Melepaskan
Pemergian Dirimu Dari Sisi Hidupku
Harus Slalu Kau Tahu
Akulah Hati Yang Telah Kau Sakiti...

Went to my paternal grandparent's place at Hougang yesterday afternoon since brother love wanted to visit them before flying of to China again... Then taxi-ed down to second home.. =D brother wanted to visit our favourite aunty and family.. hahaha! Raiyan was so cute... LOL! k skip... Received a call from Alison.. -,- She wants me to work on Tuesday.. tsk! whatever la....

Today's plan?? Go to the wedding invitation downstairs which i dont see the point to wear the proper clothing so i'll just wear whatever i feel most comfortable in cos me and mummy dearest going shopping later... =D I think i'm getting my hair cut too.. =)

Okeh... i'm going to study now... bye..

I miss you.. But it's impossible for us to get back together... you've long moved on and me? i've walked away.. Eventhough we're still talking, well somehow indirectly, i still know we're very distant... May we still be friends.. =)

2009-08-15T13:48:00.006+08:00

Ku menangis membayangkan
betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku..
kau duakan cinta ini
kau pergi bersamanya.......

School have been kinda okeh.. tensions, UT3, boring, and such is getting more and more as time goes by.. Somehow there's this feeling, im not pretty sure how to describe this particular feeling, but it keeps taking over my emotion as days drew nearer and as time passes by.. In a few more days, we will all be changing classes... Sad, but that's the actual fact.. I am trying real hard not to think about it but like it or not, i cannot run away from this fact.. It seem like we have known each other like forever, feels like it was just yesterday that we met and now, we would have to part... May we still be in contact forever, and may we be friends for as long as we live.. W45G will always be the best class that i have.. I LOVE YOU PEOPLE....

Moving on, yesterday was math.. and i came in late... hah! what's new... i don't really know why but i just couldn't bring myself to concentrate... tsk! and then after school, i rushed over to Changi airport... pfffft! yes yes! what else but work.. It was okeh i think.. met up with some other staff.. Macey, Amy, Ulysesse and Annabell was working too.. so wasn't too awkward.. like i said earlier met up with the others like Vivian and also Joanne the store manager in training.. Sadly, vivian leaving soon and Joanne was kind of a pain in the arse.. but ouh well, it was okeh... i think?? Not working today all the way till next friday.. =) glad that i have the time to study for my UT3..

I feel left out... It's not my fault that i have to work all the time.. but you are not much of a help.. instead of making me feel comfortable and not letting me feel so left out, you pple still continue having fun without me.. i'm not being selfish but still, you said im like a part of you but now, i really feel like im not.. i'm sad...

2009-08-13T15:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!
Enjoy your day while it lasts!
Jgn sombong2 lagi k?? hahah!
eh, btw kan, i didn't forget your birthday.. =P (btw, i grabbed this pic from your FB =D)

Skipped school today.. wasn't feeling well.. sigh.... hope tomorrow will be fine.. need to go to work.. tsk! so troublesome.. well, i guess i have got to bear with it for now.. Only God knows why i'm doing all this.. I miss my mother.. i'm glad i didnt attend school today actually cos i miss my mother.. hehs... okeh i guess i'll end it here..

i don't know why i feel this way..true colours is kinda showing...

2009-08-11T11:27:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not blogging for the past few days.. This is for you k Dinie darling? hahah!!

Skipped class today with 8 other classmates of mine.. hahaha! The actual plan was actually to have breakfsat and then go back to class but apparently we didnt want to go back class so yeah.. we skipped instead.. and there's only like 11 people in class, while 9 of us is in the library right now, and the rest are at home? i guess?? hahaha! And we're planning for class outings!! =)

I have to go to work later.. tsk! -,- so troublesome okeh.. freaking troublesome.. Before that i'm so going to get my jab first.. tsk! 18 bucks gone just like that cbcb! Okeh i'll skip that..

I'll end it here for now.. bye.. =)

2009-08-07T18:43:00.000+08:00

How can someone make me so sad, but still i only want them to stay
I wanna say i love you so bad, but i don't wanna scare you away
Please, i wish that you'll understand that i wanna be more than just your friend
I wish you loved me

Today was kind of okeh.. Cognitive was quite simple i suppose despite the fact that we had to push ourselves and finish our presentations on time. The rule is that if we did not finsh our presentation on time, the whole entire team will get an F grade straight. I'm glad my team and I managed to finish it on time. Not only the presentation, but also our creative rationale and our logo. =D two thumbs up team 2.. And as per normal, Mr Paul Chin changed the problem statement so instead of the normal problem statement which is to design a logo on singapore olympic games, my class were asigned to do 5 different word marks ; "SAY NO TO SMOKING", "SAY NO TO TEENAGE SEX", "EMBRACING DIVERSITY", "SAFE DRINKING" & "HARDWORK ROCKS".. My team were assigned to design a logo on safe drinking.. Quite surprised that our logo came out really nice and Mr facilitator likes it.. hahaha! Other team's logo were very nice and attractive too..

Yeap the above is our logo.. =) nice right?? i know.. hahah! All the pictures included there are actually there for a purpose to meet up with the criteria of the 3 themes ; spirit of family, spirit of health & also spirit of South East Asia.. Make a storyline out of the logo.. I'm sure you can figure it out.. =)

Okeh moving on, something is kind of bothering me right now.. It's happening yet again... Sister is not coming back home, mother is upset.. sigh.. The moment i stepped in my house just now, my mother said "Klau Shasha call ckp mama dah mati." which in direct translation means "if shasha calls, tell her that i'm dead." Yes.. that was the exact words that my dearest mother said. Indeed, it actually shot me right in the heart to hear those words coming out of her mouth.. I'm trying my very best not to cry.. but i just cannot help it. I may be smiling outside.. but deep down inside, it's really bleeding and i'm crying.. Nobody would really understand why..

Shall not let my emotion take control of me.. I need to go to Beach Centre tomorrow for my job orientation.. The problem is that i don't know how to get there! HELP!! hahah! k lame.. i'll figure out soon i guess.. hahahah!

K bye!

2009-08-04T18:13:00.006+08:00

so, I'll be waiting
cos i cant smile until i see your smile
I'll be waiting
nothing else that i would rather do
I'll be waiting
cos i cant sleep until i feel your touch
I'll be waiting
patiently I'll wait right here for you
waiting for you

I just don't understand why some people just forget their friends after they found their someone special and still dares to call themselves friends..pfffft.. To me, friends are the most precious things on earth after family.. Without your friends, you wouldn't know your mistakes, you wouldn't be who you are right now.. Cliche as it may sound but this is actual fact..

Okeh, I'll skip that.. wouldn't let it spoil my mood.. pfffft.. Science was okeh i think? haha! But i admit that i wasn't as productive.. Sorry mell, zaff, ken and wenrong..

got nth else to blog about.. I'm rather feeling like i need to cry.. tsk! don't know why la....

2009-08-03T23:05:00.004+08:00

I SWEAR I LOVE THIS PEOPLE TO THE MAX!! (feeqah&namirah missing)

Okeh so that was one of the pics from saturday's outing.. =) And btw, those pics i uploaded in facebook is not all.. There's still more.. hahah!

And so today was just another monday.. As usual, monday blues and such.. was bored and i was asleep the whole freaking day.. I mean not literally la.. haha! Then after school i actually planned to go home straight to sleep.. But then met belle otw home and we went to TM1 and then i thought of going home after that but then bumped into Naadh and Filz.. so we walked around for awhile and then we bumped into Zamair... hahahah! cool or what.. so decided to slack around at zamairs void deck and then Syafiq came.. and then something happened la kan.. we started talking about something.. haha! which apparently can be converted into a series of story book.. and the title is LOWRIDER.. wth.. hahah! k nvm.. pffft.

k i think thats about it.. tmrw's science.. and i'm rather tired... tsk!

2009-08-02T21:00:00.007+08:00

BE JEALOUS GIRLS.... hahahha!
(he is damn tall i tell you, i'm wearing my heels btw.. haha!)

So yesterday went out with my loves.. Met at 330 at pasir ris mrt and then trained down to marina bay and bussed to marina barrage to celebrate hadi's & hilfi's belated birthday.. Planned to dine at pizza hut right after but dinie got a call from her cousin asking whether we would like to catch the fireworks from Marina Mandarin hotel.. So we decided to catch the fireworks at the hotel room instead.. The view was beautiful... No words can describe it.. Walked to mrt station after fireworks as we wanted to go to bugis to have our dinner/supper at tong seng.. Iqah and Wan went home after dinner/supper, while we walked over to Arab Street for Shisha.. Feeqah joined us right after and we stayed and talked till about 1am.. And then Hadi's and Syafiq's dads came to fetch us home.. Overall, we all had a great time though there was alot of walking all thanks to the road blocks..pfffft! pictures on facebook.. =)

And today, followed mummy dearest to wedding invitation.. -,- and saw Taufik Batisah yet again.. hahaha! two weeks in a row.. =D *GRINS* but this time i took a picture with him... =) haha! jealous right?? i know.. ouh well, what can i say.. it's a privilege being related to celebrities.. hahahaha! not to boast but it's natural fact.. hahahha!

k bye...

2009-08-01T00:41:00.005+08:00

Today was apparently another friday in school. Cognitve as usual. And RJ closes tomorrow at midnight, but this time with a condition, we would have to write in 500 words.. troublesome or what... pfffft! i've yet to do my RJ cos i just got home and i dont know if is should actually do it now cos i dont think i can make it tomorrow. hmmmmph! nvm.. i still have time to think about it... hahah!

Moving on, after school, i had an interview at TCC in Bugis Junction. And i got the job... =) yayness! like finally.. Alhamdulilah i must say.. Well, atleast i don't have to depend on my mother anymore. Thanks to Mell and Zaff for helping me prepare and everything, to Suganya for accompanying me... All your effort is much appreciated.. =)

And so, after the interview, we decided to head up to town thought of window shopping at Ion, but that place just gave us a heart attack.. it was much more of a higher class than Paragon! We actually went in to a shop where they have all kind of prom dresses and such.. If the dresses were to cost like 100plus or 300plus i would still be fine with it you know.. But the dresses there costs up to 8K plus plus!! can you imagine that?? Me and Suganya actually got a heart attack right there and then.. so we decided to head down to wisma and walked around and then to taka to have dinner. We had MOS burgers.. =) i think it was okeh.. hahah! and then we walked and walked and walked.. I thought we were just walking around aimlessly until suganya told me that she was bringing me to Harry's.. -,- but apparently Harry's was full and so we walked again.. SOMEONE just dont want to give up right.. hahaha! and we finally found one decent place where we can have a shot.. hahah! and that is at Rouge Outdoors.. we both had slippery nipples.. =) strogn but nice i must say.. Thanks for the drink darling... =) And then after our shots we trained home and separated at city hall.. i had a so much fun today!! =) And Suganya, whatever that you got to know about me today, just keep it to yourself okeh?? hahaha! you know i know... LOL! Okeh, enough says, now pictures!!

Okeh, and so, tomorrow will be outing with my LOVES! =) can't wait to meet you guys.. =) well see you.. will blog again soon.. bye..

2009-07-30T22:46:00.003+08:00

I'VE GOT AN INTERVIEW TOMORROW AND I'M FREAKING OUT!!!!

Okeh skip that for awhile... Had math module today. apparently we changed group... The best part is that Faci let us choose our team mates.. =D and so my team mates are : MELL, ZAFF & SUGANYA!!! =D okeh.. so for the first time, we were actually super productive la... hahah! okeh, only our classmates will know what "PRODUCTIVE" really means.. haha! i think?

Well, after school we went to TRCC for lunch/dinner and slacked there till about 830 and homed..

I'm so tired of playing this stupid game with you.. I just wish i can end it here, but i realised it's not that easy.. How i wish you knew what's actually burried deep down and if only you knew how i am feeling right now.. I always tell myself that it's impossible. A passing cloud gives people false alerts that it's gonna rain.. YOU? you're somewhat similar to that, you gave me false hopes.. Just leave me be okeh?

2009-07-29T22:06:00.004+08:00

Am I supposed to put my life on hold
because you don't know how to act
and you don't know where your life is going
Am I supposed to be torn apart, broken hearted, in a corner crying?
Pardon me if I don't show it
I don't care if I never see you again
I'll be alright
Take this final piece of advice and get yourself together,
but either way baby, I'm gone

Had gamelan after school... Way super haywire.. listened to emo songs while in class... Thanks to mell.. -,- i actually dont know what to say already today.. But thanks Fahmi for listening to all my blabbering nonsense..

k nothing more to say.. bye

2009-07-29T08:50:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY HADI!!!!
MAY ALLAH SHOWER YOU WITH ALL HIS LOVE AND BLESSINGS..
ENJOY YOUR DAY WHILE IT LAST..
AND GET READY FOR THE FLASHES ON SATURDAY OKEH?? MAKE SURE YOUR EYES CAN OPEN BIG2! hahahah~!

k.. thats all for now.. will update more later.. =) bye..

2009-07-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

Aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu
Dan tlah ku berikan seluruh hatiku
Tapi mengapa baru kini kau pertanyakan cintaku

Aku pun tak mengerti yang terjadi
Apa salah dan kurang ku padamu
Kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan
Karna sekali cinta aku tetap cinta

Had science today.. It was okeh.. I guess?? Was kinda haywire today but still managed to put that aside somehow... Had presentation at lecture room which i find quite fun.. No idea why.. Played SIMS3 during presentation.. haha!

Then after school slacked for a while at the lecture room.. And then off to TRCC.. planned to just stay for a while but apparently me and zaff stayed there till like about 8? hahah! with mell, zura, huzaima, suganya and aisyah & diva (if i spelled wrongly sorry) joined us afterwards.. Slacked, laughed, joked, laughed, sing, laughed, shout, laughed, scream and laughed and homed...

Feeling abit jiwang today.. so yeah... Ouh, and my blister havent burst and it hurts!!!! boooohooo~!

GET OVER IT CAUSE KEN'S THE MAN.. - quoted by Kenneth Chang Weize =) thanks brother..

The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, loving someone else....

2009-07-27T20:40:00.000+08:00

Today is not just another regular monday. Today, w45G's formal wear day! To be honest, i was quite surprise to see how good looking everyone was in formal clothing. Superbly HOT & STUNNING i must say.. I will only upload some pictures as i think that it is impossible for me to upload 100 over pictures in this post.. hahah! I strongly think that blogger should upgrade the photo uploader to be a mass photo uploader.. hahah! k lame.. Other pictures on facebook... =D

So today, we learned how to make a resume for ourselves and also how to go through a proper interview. Everyone have the chance to actually be an interviewee and an interviewer.. And so, we had to do a role play in our teams and we had to switch roles.. Kind of fun actually. haha!

W45G did very well today i must say.. hahah! And with everyone loving the cameras, we camwhored without thinking about our assignments... hahahah! Freaks.. LOL!

Okeh2, moving on, after school, mummy texted me and ask me to come back home.. I don't know for what reason.. -,-Coincidentally Jun An wanted to go home too. so decided to go home with him since we both live in pasir ris.

By right Jun An always alight at IKEA while i will alight at tampines. But today, since my heels was killing me and i didnt want to take the overhead bridge, so i decided to alight together with Jun An and walk to the bustop near park view primary school.. hahah! And along the way something really2 funny and embarrassing happened.. Jun An keep quiet okeh?? hahahah!

Missed the chance to meet Syg.... =( wanted to take pictures with him badly in our formal wear since his class having the same modules as mine... booohoo~! nvm.. next time okeh?

hmmmph.. i think thats about it.. =D

2009-07-26T22:20:00.002+08:00

Okeh, so i guess i'll be blogging about friday, saturday and also today.. =)

Friday was okeh i guess.. Well some part of it atleast.. Started of with changing of groups.. After sometime being attached to the gettho group, i ended up having to leave them.. hahah! no more being stressed up over the guys playing DOTA & CS.. hhahah! The W45F dudes were having their formal wear day.. and so they wanted to take pictures with us.. hahah! they look sizzling hot in their formal suits.. =D two thumbs up.. Will upload the pictures when tmrw.. along with tmrw's pictures.. =D Met up with Dinie, Hadi, Adik, Syafiq and Hilfi after school.. hahahah! After so long.. God i miss them so much.. haha! Headed over to Dinie's place slacked, webcammed with Miira while waiting for Hadi and Syafiq to arrive.. Wait for them so long.. -,- i was hungry you know.. tsk! Then when they arrived we headed down to east point for dinner.. After dinner headed down to cc, watched adik and some other guys play takraw for awhile.. Saw someone i least expect to see.. -,- hahah! ouh well, whats past is passed right?? haha! then we slacked outside cc to discuss about next saturdays plan.. Excited much.. =) Headed home right after..

Kicked started my saturday quite late.. haha! woke up at 1plus and then had my bath and then slept again all the way till 6pm.. haha! Was supposed to follow mummy dearest to an engagement ceremony but i was too exhausted.. hahah! Then something really unexpected happened la kan?? -,- but i was glad my syg was by my side all along.. =D thank you so much syg.. Meet up soon okeh?

Today?? woke up at about 12 and had to bath and get ready for a kenduri.. was very lazy to go but mummy dragged me along.. -,- Went to the newly build shopping mall at Yishun right after the kenduri.. Shopped for my formal shirt since mummy wanted to buy me a new one so much.. And coincidentally, G2000 was having a sale.. 70% off!! so we went in and bought one piece of garment.. =D happy much.. hahah!

Tomorrow is going to be W45G formal day.. excited much.. =D i wonder how my classmates will look like in office and formal wears.. hahahah! especially the guys.. Those gettho guys.. hahah! i think i'll laugh my arse off tomorrow either that i'll be pleasantly amazed to see how good looking they are and at the same time take a sneak peak of how they would look like in about 5 years time i must say? hahah! Well, we'll see the results tomorrow.. hahah!!

I'm glad the misunderstanding and conflicts between me and mell ended.. See? i know you can..
And to my Syg, thank you alot for being by my side when i needed you the most.. i know you're busy and got not much time to entertain this friend of yours but i really appreciate te fact that you took the time to be by my side and help me settle down and cheered me up... Thank you again.. You owe me something ey?? hahah! just sometime to spend and catch up with each other will do.. =) See you soon..

ouh ya and lastly,

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MAZNI!!
I LOVE YOU BBY!
MAY ALLAH SHOWER YOU WITH ALL HIS LOVE AND BLESSINGS! =D

2009-07-25T23:22:00.002+08:00

You've got me wrong.. You've got me all wrong.. Yes i am harsh, yes i am pushing you like a fucker but then again, you're looking at it from the wrong angle. I was trying to help, trying my very best to put aside all my problems just to help my dearest friend whom i treat like a sister.. Yes you didn't ask for my help, but i'm doind what a true friend would do.. Yes you said that i should have been a little bit nicer with my words, i should have think about your feelings first.. But did it crossed your mind that i was nice with my words back then? i was telling you "Mell, relax, it's going to be okeh". But did you listen? did you even bother to just open your heart and tell yourself that it was okeh? No you didn't.. Instead you kept telling yourself that you're doomed, continuing being pessimistic and keep on going back at where it all started, where all the troubles are.. So what am i suppose to do next? console you again and end up you not listening again and repeat the whole damn routine all over again until you're tired of it?

I can choose that solution if i wanted to.. But it won't make me a good friend if i continued doing that.. I chose to be harsh.. I had no other choice.. I needed to teach you the hard way.. I needed to put in all the harsh words in just to make you wake up and realise that all that you've been doing is not going to bring you anywhere.. Yes i'm disappointed and hurt.. Because of you and your ego.. You still don't want to bring it down despite the harsh words and sarcasm. Yes i know you're hurt, but you've seen my actions from the wrong angle and now you're like pushing the blame on me.. You make it seem like i'm the one hurting you and not understanding you.. Now you keep blaming yourself and make it looks like im guilty of making you feel that way..

Try looking and understanding my motive from another angle will you? Stop having that midset that i am harsh to you because im angry at you and such.. I AM BEING HARSH BECAUSE I WANT THE BEST OUT OF YOU AND I WANT IT TO COME FROM YOU YOURSELF! can't you see it that way? you said you're trying.. i appreciate that fact like alot.. But you're not putting what you said to actions... You keep on saying you'll stop bothering me and blablabla but do you know that you're saying all that for the sake of saying it? You're saying things that is impossible for you to face alone.. What if i say okeh, go ahead and ruin your future.. will you accept that in the positive or negative way? Im sure you'll take it in the negative way.. you'll say that i dont care about you anymore and such.. But dont you realise that the meaning behind those words are even more deep? I simply want you to think and act wisely...

And by the way.. I didn't change.,. it's you who've change alot.. You changed because of this issue... And it hurts me... So think about it.. Think wisely.. If you still want to go on with what you said to me minutes ago in msn, then go ahead.. I'm not going to stop you.. Think about it Mell.. Whateverit is, just so you know, i still love you.. Now its really up to you to decide....

2009-07-23T20:22:00.004+08:00

Pardon the stupid parting.. hahha! This was how pale i look for the past few days... pfffft! -,- Glad that my temperature is now back to normal... =D which means i can go to school tomorrow.. But i'm still thinking whether to go or not... haha! will think about it...

Okeh, moving on, i am craving for an outing/hangout/spending time with some people... Why the random-ness? I don't know myself.. I just feel like there's alot of catching up to do.. Besides, i have a heart and my heart misses those people..

I can't wait for this year's Ramadhan.. yeap.. It's still early to talk about this but still, the excitement takes over me as the day draws nearer.. Reason? haha! I realised that i havent been fulfilling this task of mine willingfully and completely for the past few years.. Time to turn over a new leaf isn't it? haha.. besides, last year wasn't fun at all.. I didn't go to the bazaar with my lovelies, breakfast with them, or even have a proper Raya outing with them.. Last year was a crucial year for us.. O'levels was around the corner then.. Well that explains why i'm excited this year huh.. hahah! I hope this year's Ramadhan and Syawal will be a great and joyous one.. Especially when there are more people to celebrate with.. =D

moving on, i need to admit something.. I miss you... If only you know.. If only you understand.. sigh..

K bye...

2009-07-22T14:17:00.007+08:00

I LOVE THESE GIRLS.... and I LOVE W45G!! glad that things have fallen bck into place... =)

Didn't go to school today.. What do you expect?? i cannot even open my eyes and get out of bed earlier this morning.. Besides, mummy will scream if I did go to school.. hahs..

Okeh so, my body temperature is dropping.. yayness! =D wasn't as high as yesterday night atleast...Hope it'll e back to normal tmrw so that i can go to school to meet my lovelies....

Webcamming with zaff right now.. hehs.. bored la at home.. boooohooo~! Okeh actually i got nth more to blog about now.. so yeah.. IM ROTTING AT HOME!!!

okeh lastly, i wanna say something to some people...

to Mell, take a chill pill, relax and cheer up..
to Preemal, cheer up girl.. I still love you no matter what.. and relax alright??
to GNK members, i miss you guys but sadly i cnt join you pple today..
to Miira, im sorry too k? I LOVE YOU...
to Syg, will turn up on that day okeh? rmmbr what i told you last time? =)

k bye..

2009-07-21T18:52:00.006+08:00

Still not feeling very well. boooohooo~! =( School was just okeh.. Having science module today is so not helping.. Plus, i think i am pmsing today. I know i'm like showing a fucked up attitude lately, but i need a break.. With you drifting away, missing sister & having menstruation cramps, its really not helping at all... But in any case, if you're reading this, Mell, Zaff, and everyone else, im really really sorry.. Give me time okeh? I just need time to gather myself back together.. I hope you understand...

So today, i went home straight after school.. So not me at all, i know.. Thought of catching replug's performance but than again, i couldn't stand the restless-ness anymore, i needed alot of sleep, like seriously...

Moving on, i realised that i was pondering about something all the while i was in the bus on my way home..hmmmmmph..

FRIENDSHIP... A very strong and meaningful word indeed. It is proven that you need friends in order to survive in the world, besides the important things that we need to live. I believe friends are the people whom actually make us who we are today. Without them, we're nobody.. Friends are suppose to be there for you through your ups and downs, they correct you when you're wrong, support you and be by your side no matter what happens.. It is improtant for us to treasure friendship, eventhough some memories with your friends are those you might not want to remember.. You will meet & make new friends along the way in the journey of your life, but those whom you made friends with from the start must not be forgotten....

It hurts me when two good friends misunderstood each other.. Give one another time, try to understand one another, and i'm sure you'll be a better friend...

Webcammed with dearest brother who is all the way in China earlier... Hahahha! still crazy as ever.. I MISS YOU BROTHER.. =)

i think that's about it for today... hmmmph... Might not be attending school tomorrow, feel very very lethargic.. =(

k bye.....

btw, Nizham, if you're reading this, cheer up okeh?.. =)
Mell & zaff, sorry for the fucked up attitude just now.. i still love you..
And to *INSERT NAME*, i think i'm giving up already.. you don't show any signs of you bothering at all, so i guess i'm not going to be bothered by this either...

2009-07-20T21:45:00.002+08:00

Went to school despite feeling very lethargic today.. -,- So i slept the whole day during class... And now i'm at mell's place.. =D with zaff, huzaima and zurah.. hahaha! Okeh, i dont know what to say already except for I MISS YOU....

k bye....

I miss my sister still.. and i miss you.. booohooo~!

2009-07-19T23:09:00.004+08:00

I MISS YOU SISTER...

All this while I've been having sleepless nights because of some guys and over my broken heart... But for the past few days I've been having sleepless nights because of this dearest sister of mine.. I admit we weren't very close when we were young.. In fact, we've been like enemies.. Then a few yeas ago, she went away.. She ran away from home.. for about 3 years... It was only last year that she came back.. At first, i hated her.. I hated the sight of her... She tried her very best to come close but i didn't let her in.. It was until i realised that she's my sister after all.. It was less than a year when we finally became like best friends.. We shared almost everything with each other.. She was there when i had to cry my hearts out... Right now, she's not here.. but I'm crying my hearts out... ALONE... Allah please bring her back home... i miss her so dearly... i need her by my side...

And it hurts me even more when grandmother asked for her earlier.. I didn't know what to say.. i didn't know how to answer.. I was crying out loud deep inside where nobody can hear me...Allah give me strength.. Give me strength at least until she come back.. i know she will.. she promised...

2009-07-19T01:10:00.004+08:00

Come back soon please... i need you to be with me especially now.. i'm feeling down and you're so not helping.. you'e making me feel even more miserable... =( can't help it but just cry..

Do apparently nothing today.. -,- Slept in yesterday night and woke up at almost 6pm just now.. pfffft! i have got no idea why.. but yes i did just that.. And no i wasn't tired at all.. Okeh whatever..

Guess what? I FORGOT TO DO MY RJ! fuck la... it crossed my mind at 12 midnight, when the submission is closed..CB ah.. seriously sia.. fuck! so i send it via webmail.. I hope mr paul chin won't be so asshole not to give me a good grade.. =)

I wonder what's in for me tomorrow.. another pathetic day maybe.. pfffft! I'm craving for fireworks.. okeh that's kida lame.. but hell yeah i wanna watch beautiful fireworks.. Who is kind enough to accompany me? haha! hmmmph.. but the problem is that i dont know when will there be fireworks? haha! k whatever to that..

I miss my loves.. when wanna meet up again?? everyone so busy, no time for each other already... booohooo to school... -,-

I want.........nvm, i'll skip that part...

2009-07-17T20:26:00.005+08:00

Only Allah knows how much i miss this person... This person is my sister... I don't care what you people wanna say or think about her.. I WILL LOVE HER NO MATTER WHAT!

Have been crying since 4am in the morning...Reason?it's a logn story, but i'm gonna summarise it.. I'm sorry if this sound lame or what so ever, i just have to let it out so bear with it..

It was 4 am when she came home and i happen to open my eyes.. The moment that i saw her, my tears rolled down my cheek.. she came over to me, hugged me so tight, kissed me on my forehead and whispered, "I promise i'll come home before fasting month".. I couldn't help it but to cry and hugged her tight.. The feeling of not wanting to let go came.... But she keep on saying that she promise she'll be back before fasting month starts, and then she left.. She left me crying my heart out for the next two hours..I didn't go back to sleep after she left.. Right that moment i realised how much i loved her despite all the nasty remarks we passed to each other and how much i use to say i hate her so much... I really couldn't help it but to cry...

Sha, I love you no matter how much i say i hate you.. and please don't break your promise.. I'll be waiting for you to come back..

To my dearest classmates, i'm so sorry if i was being an asshole today.. I'm sorry if i hurt anybody with my harsh words..And thank you alot for being there for me when i needed you people.. I love you.. =)

2009-07-15T20:53:00.002+08:00

FIRSTLY, I WOULD LIKE TO WISH MY DEAREST PREEMAL

VERY

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY~!

May you have blissful years of living ahead...

LOVE YOU ALWAYS SWEETS~~~! =D

SFAA (Syaa missing again though.. haiiyo!)

Featuring : MELL & LYN.... =D

Went to school late again today.. haha! Met Suganya, Mell and Zaff at the control station and we went off to KFC.. I didnt expect the breakfast at KFC to be superb.. hahah~! okeh LOL!

Class was as per normal... nothing abnormal about anything.. haha~! Whatever.. pfffft~! Actually i've got nothing to blog about today.. so yeah.. I guess i'll end the post here.. =)

K bye!

If only you know... I would be more than delighted...

2009-07-14T21:37:00.001+08:00

See that fuck face... That's the face that i put on at the end of the day today... Reason? someone in class was being an arsehole... CB! mix personal emotion with school work...

EXCUSE ME MISS, FACE THE FUCKING FACT THAT EVERYONE IN CLASS DOESNT LIKE YOU CAN? AND OUH YA, DON'T NEED TO BOOTLICK FACI TO GET HER ATTENTION OKEH? FACE THE FACT... YOU'RE JUST BEING CHILDISH.. SO JUST BEWARE OF WHO YOU'RE DEALING WITH OKEH 20 YEAR OLD BITCH! BECAUSE YOU WONT WANT TO STEP ON THE WRONG FEET...pffffft!

Okeh, skip the subject.. you're just a waste of time... -,-

Okeh so earlier was science, it was okeh i guess.. Changed group.. got to choose our own group and so i chose to be with Zaff bby.. =) because i never been in the same group with her.. So having to choose our own group thats why something apparently happened.. Apparently that 20 year old bitch got to know some people was bitching about her so she got all emotional.. aaawwwhh! okeh whatever.. i said drop the subject alrdy..

And so, after school we had our Math UT.. wasn't that bad after all huh? i thought it'd be all tough and i won't be able to complete.. but surprisingly i did... And surprisingly i remembered what mr syg explained yesterday in the lirary to ben ben... hahah! LOL! i hope i can get a good grade for UT2 mann..

After UT waited for the w45f dudes.. and then walked off to the interchange with them.. parting with Xun and Weiming at the pond there as they wanted to eat at TRCC, parted with Mell at subway while the rest of us continued our walk to the interchange... blablablabla.... Went to tamp starbucks with feeqah.. not to eat but to ask if they have any vancancies.. hahah! I NEED A JOB BADLY.. i hope they'll call me for an interview mann.. seriously..

As for tomorrow, there'll be no UT... =D i give two thumbs up for that. hahaha! Okeh, i wanna go off.. no mood.. -,-

Ouh ya.. tmrw GNK meeting.. excited much..can meet my B(abi), mat repku, and of cos the other GNK members.. RINDU DOK!! hahha!

k bye..

2009-07-13T22:20:00.005+08:00

Today was enterprise.... -,- Purposely come in late.. hahah! Had breakfast at MacD with Mell, Zaff, Suganya, & Belle.. hahahah! attitude like fuck.. LOL! then cabbed to school reached at abt 930am.. enter class and do nothing.. hahah! played games and take quizes on facebook... Cannot blame me what.. my mind wasnt progressing at all.. like seriously...

Enterprise UT was okeh.. i managed to complete everything except for last question, as usual.. -,- CB! After UT went off to civic centre with Belle and Zaff since belle wanted to eat at Cafe Galilee... Then off to the library.. Me and Zaff were cracking our brains trying to figure out how to do the RJ question.. Sally Sor is such a fucker!! give RJ question so difficult.. Luckily, someone came onlinejust the right time.. ahah! so decided to ask him for help.. LOL! i ask for help, nvr ask him do.. But he did.. hahah! Thank you very much syg(no chance to say thank you just now.. -,-).. =) hahahah! okeh.. LOL! then Benben needed help with math also, i told you so my brain wasnt progressing so Syg had to help also.. hahah! Math genius ah.. hahah! Thanks again, just in case you're reading this.. i doubt so.. haha! Okeh so went home right after...

Tomorrow is another day...It's science!!! KNNBCCB~! first day of the week so have to be independent.. -,- hahah! then after that got MATH UT!!!! Double the KNNBCCB~~~~!!!! I'm so dead tomorrow... SHIT~! no hope already.. die.. comferm die...

k got nth more to say... bye....

i miss those times... bring it back to me please?? i miss you... where did you go?? you seem so close but yet so far... come bck please?

2009-07-12T02:34:00.002+08:00

Whenever you're feeling down, there'll always be someone who will cheer you up and make your day. Today, someone made my day.. =) you know who you are.. Just in case you're reading this, i wanna say thank you.. thank you alot because you have put a smile on my face today.. And remember, no matter what happen, i'll always be here for you, to lend my ears to listen to your stories, to lend my shoulders for you to cry on and lean.. =) Thank you alot... And you'll always be my syg no matter what alright..

k bye..

2009-07-10T22:12:00.001+08:00

Ouh my God!!!! I can't believe i chopped off my fringe!!!!!! aaaaaaarrrrrrgggggghhhhh~!!!!! Okeh, thats the whole point.. i'm like so not over it la.. Zaff should know the reason why i cut it off.. -,- sigh....

I think i'm going to miss my hair.... booohoooo~!
I was frowning through out the process.... -,-

SEE! IT HAVE BEEN OFFICIALLY CHOPPED OFF~!

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I think it's a little bit too flat... Don't you think so?? sigh..... It's okeh, i'll get use to it soon... sigh..

Okeh, so today's science UT was a total killer...sigh... no hope lo! And so, after UT we packed and waited for the W45F dudes... Walked to the interchange together, parted at control station since the guys wanted to have dinner at CWP, while me and Zaff were heading to jurong west to get my hair done..

Okeh, i think that's about it for today.. I'm not in a good mood actually, but i'm trying my best to put it behind me... & I NEED A JOB BADLY.......... sigh...

2009-07-09T22:40:00.006+08:00

PICTURES FROM 7th July 2009!! =D

SFAA LOVES <3> KENNETH'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION IN CLASS! (AWESOME)

W45F DUDES PLAYING BASKETBALL WITH A BUNCH OF FOREIGNERS.. (DOUBLE AWESOME)

I guess the pictures explained it all right.. No other words to describe how fun it was. Spending time with the W45F dudes was splendid! Very gentlemen indeed.. =D yesterday had cognitve UT2.. hahah! it was okeh.. i guess.. Today was spent with Zaff, Xun & Jun An.. =D

So we went to CWP, walk like nobody's business.. haha! then off to Civic centre as Xun wanted to go to the library.. Saw Syg there.. LOL! HEARTLESS! hahah! stunned for a while.. then off to CWP banquet since they were famished.. haha! slacked and crapped right there and then.. Went home right after.. =D

TOMORROW FRIDAY ALREADY!! no turning back now... I'm really cutting it off.. OMG! i can't believe this.....

k bye.

2009-07-08T22:40:00.002+08:00

Will update & post yesterday's pic tomorrow...
damn exhausted.......... =(

2009-07-07T22:49:00.003+08:00

Officially the second post for the day.. So today is Kenneth's birthday.. As planned, sonia came in to our class during lunch with ken's birthday cake.. WE HOPE YOU LIKE THE SURPRISE KEN! =D

hahah! Science was kinda okeh today.. Eventhough today's problem is Biology, not really my forte, but still i managed to complete the ppt, of cos with the help of my team mates.. hmmmph...

And as usual, break times spent with W45F dudes.. =D well okeh i admit i didnt spend much of my break time with them today cos i was feeling damn lethargic and i was doing the ppt.. -,- since that someone don't want do right.. k whatever..

And then, after school, i actually planned to go home straight since i was tired.. like extremely.. but changed plan since i got nothing much to do at home and realised that i'll be darn bored if i were to go home.. hahah! So me, mell & zaff bussed down to Admiralty to Xun's place with the guys of cos.. Sion & John missing though.. so left the six of us.. The guys played basketball, while we girls just sit around.. haha! We joined them later on.. i couldn't stop laughing mann.. hahha! but i was too tired to laugh.. hahah! Don't make sense i know.. but it happened.. haha! okeh, so that';s basically it for today.. hahaha!

Had dinner at mac with zaff and then went home.. =D and now i'm studying for tomorrow's UT eventhough i'm like half dead now... pictures will be uploaded tmrw..

K bye,,,

2009-07-07T09:19:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY KENNETH!!!!

May you succeed in your future endeavours.. Stay HOT & happy always k?? Don't SLEEP in class alrdy la.. ouh and2 eat more vegetables k?? heheh! hahah! =D W45G LOVES YOU!!!! <3

2009-07-06T13:52:00.004+08:00

Again, i have to state this... She is not my sister.. hahah! =D So yesterday's plan of going to Arab street went well, except for the part that it rained.. -,- But nevermind.. we still managed to get there and buy the Kain.. heheh! =D GOLD colour for my family this year... yay! hahah! okeh.. we bought just one Kain yesterday... Will be going to arab street again this weekend to buy another one.. heheh!

Okeh so today is another monday.. monday blues?? not really, but i feel very tired and sleepy.. How i wish i'm at home right now sleeping on my bed.... sigh... Everyone having holidays! And what? just because there are minority number of adults studying in poly, we dont get our holiday?? -,- This is so unfair.. tsk!

I feel so so so tired!!!!!!! Like dying alrdy la... And i really need a job badly.. OMG! i need to start earning my own money.. sigh... But then again, i wonder if i can cope... UT greades have been shitty.. need to buck up alrdy.. -,- Thought it was easy? not at all..

Thinking of getting a new hairstyle.. but no money to get it done... haiiyo! everything also i want, but no money.. That's precisely why i need to get a job..... sigh...

K bye.. got to get my mind back in class.. -,-

2009-07-04T14:13:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was awesome!! =D Cognitive wasnt that bad afterall.. okeh well, atleast we managed to complete an average ppt right?? hahha! okeh, so as usual, breaks are spent with the lovelies W45F dudes.. crazy moments.. haha! then after school spent time with them again.. haha~! slacked in our classroom, then off to subway.. And as per normal, we talked, laughed, crapped... I LOVE THOSE GUYS MANN!! hhaha!

Later on, i trained down to bugis to meet Dinie and Feeqah.. haha! i was late, RED LINE IS SO FUCKING SLOW! okeh, so we had our dinner at Tong Seng coffee shop, behind bugis junction.. then walked around bugis street, saw nth interesting except for earings.. hahah! then walked down to arab street.. surveyed the vintage shops.. OMG! i'm like going crazy!! hahha! damn nice but kinda expensive.. Dinie bought for Azin a bemudas at HEADLINES!! hahha! yes!! headlines the vintage shop.. hahha! i'm sogoing back to all those vintage shops when i have the money.. hahha! then we walked over to the nearest bustop and took the bus to cityhall mrt and trained down to orchard since dinie wanted to go wisma atria.. went crazy again.. ahha! LOL! then trained to simei slacked... since the guys reached late, i decided to sleep over too.. hahah! okeh done..

today's plan of going shopping at cotton on cancelled AGAIN.... sigh... tmrw's plan better go on...
so below are the pictures from yestrday.. =D

Sion with two coconut looking ponytails & john with his sissy pose.. hahah! so ADORABLE!!
HAHA! JOHN WANTED TO SMOKE SO MUCH! LOL! =D

MY LOVES <3>FEEQAH <3> Just random...

threesome.. I LOVE <3> =D

At Simei cc...

retarded! hahah!

Dinie <3> No teeth.. =)

Pout tak menjadi.. hahha!

hahha! sempat posing..

Feeling2.. hahha!

blom ready la feeqah! hahah!

perasan lagi..

Nur Shafeeqah Abdullah.. <3> Dinie Dayana Zulkifli! <3>

Okeh dah... bye...

2009-07-02T22:37:00.001+08:00

MY RABBIT TEETH & STONE FACE... =D

Okeh, so after school today, me, belle, feeqah and elfi went to Changi airport, free ride thanks to feeqah's dad.. =D Me and feeqah wanted to look for a job... ahahha! LOL! okeh, so filled in application form at coffee bean, starbucks was apparently under renovations.. so yeah.. then walk2, decided to settle at MacD as feeqah was famished, and i wanted to sit and surf the net for a while.. Belle went home though.. =( hahah! LOL! camwhored, catch up with each other since like we've not been seeing each other for quite sometimes now.. LOL! Okeh so we crapped and laughed.. hahahah! funny mann.. and then after eating, we walked around aimlessly.. we just didn't want to go home.. hahah! so we ended up at BK to have barley, yes just barley and just talked.. Trained home right after..

And something funny happened in class earlier.. hahha! i bet you guys know the drink carrier which have a hole in the middle right?? hahah! Apparently Whye keat was pulling and stretching without realising and thinking of the after results.. hahah! LOL! and the outcome was........

hahaha! LOL! okeh lame i know.. was just trying to cheer myself up right... tsk!

Have been thinking of getting a new hair style.. and i've been thinking real deep and i really wanna have anew look... hmmmmph... ouh well, we'll see how it goes.. =D

Spent time with the W45F dudes.. =D hahah! funny mann! LOL! kinda make my day also.. ahhhaha! thanks alot guys.. =D And Syaa sugar if you're reading this, thanks alot tau.. ILY!

k bye.. tmrw cognitive... hope i'll survive.. hahah!

2009-07-01T19:57:00.000+08:00

As requested by Xun, i've put up a picture of me smiling.. hahha! happy now?? LOL! okeh2, that's not the point.. haha!

Something is really pissing me off right now.. gggggrrrrrrr!!!!!! Dad!!! you're really annoying today!! tsk!! sigh.. Want this want that, you want everything... Do it yourself can?? tsk!

I shall not let it spoil my mood...pffffft! Today's elearning is a bitch! irritating mann.. communication somemore.. sigh! Honestly speaking, i didn't do the letter.. hahah! LOL! lazy la.. I even went out to pay somebills at Whitesands mall.. hahha! and came back but still do nothing.. hahah! Well atleast i help my team do the worksheet didnt i? besides, grades not included anyway..

UT grades have been predictable.. I need to buck up alot.. sigh... =( next UT i have to do my best...

Tommorow school will resume.. yay! =D school resumes means i can meet feeqah, belle, my classmates, SFAA, W45F dudes, my syg, my bby, GNK mates.. and all others... =D

k bye..

ouh ya.. To all who IM-ed me on msn yesterday night, i'm really sorry i didnt reply.. i dozed off infront of my lappy.. hehe! and to my syg, sorry didnt answer your call..

2009-06-30T15:02:00.003+08:00

Elearning is not fun at all.. i can't get anything in my head right now.. sigh.. i don't know what have gotten into me.. I don't know what is bothering me.. I think it's happening again la.. sigh...
I shall not think of it too much, but then again, i can't help it, can i?

On a higher note, mummy promise me to go shopping this saturday at cotton on!! hahah! yay!! and then on sunday, we'll be going to arab street with aunty dearest to buy kain for our Hari Raya clothes.. =D Black this year okeh mummy?? heheh!

I can't wait for school to start.. Thursday!! only one more day away and school will resume as per normal which means no more missing people... YAYNESS!!! hahaa!

To Feeqah my dear, thank you for listening to my never ending story and sighing.. I love you okeh?
To Zaff bby, thank you so much for giving me the support.. I love you!
To Mell bby, thank you too for being by my side and reminding me not to think too much abt it.. I love you also!
To Syaa bby, thank you too cos you have been there to support me also.. I love you!!

okeh bye...

2009-06-29T13:07:00.001+08:00

OMG!! after so long... 5 years to be exact.. hahaha! after not contacting with my primary school friends.. Now, when we're in tertiary level we got in touch.. LOL! how wonderful.. First i saw Iwana & Iwani in school.. surprised but glad.. haha! then saw Afini at woodlands interchange, didnt expect but yet again glad.. hahah! then got lisah's blog url which lead to karimah's.. hahah! all got connection.. then then i was browsing through my tagged account yesterday and i saw Aiman's profile under my online friends.. hahah! all this while he was on my friends list but i didnt know.. great or what.. hahah! then earlier this morning Ena commented on my profile and we're like so excited that we webcamed in bed.. haha! look at the screen shots! hahah! both havent bathe.. hahah! LOL! k nvm.. hahah! keep in touch k pple??

Quarantine is really killing me!! OMG!! can i like meet my loves??!?!?! i want meet my loves!! i miss so many pple.. my LOVES<3,>

aku rindu seseorg teramat sgt la.. sigh.. sometimes being in the world of fantasy is much more better then reality huh? sigh.... Somehow i don't want to wake up from this dream i'm having.. it seems so peaceful.. In this dream, my heart is being mended.. but just wait till someone wake s me up all the hopes will be crashed.. my heart will be crushed and flushed down the drain all over again... I want it to happen, but then again, it's impossible.. i know it's impossible...It can never happen.. that's the reason why i wanna stay asleep and never wanna wake up from this dream... It's just too good to be true.. SIGH.... where's the smile? it's here, but still fake... =(

2009-06-28T23:38:00.002+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! THANKS ALOT EHK BDH!! Well apparently i'm suppose to go shopping today with mummy and aunty dearest.. but someone, just someone have to spoil the plan.. CB!! first ckp nak dtg, pastu postpone pastu last minute ckp tak dtg.. kau fikir aper?? fun fair?? CB AH SERIOUS!!

This is the exact reason why i hate my relative from my dad's side.. cb! my dad's brother promised to come over with his wife, so my mum said we have to cancel our plans today which we have planned like last friday with aunty.. okeh fine.. i was mad at first but soon after i accept the fact that dad's brother is coming over, once in a lifetime sia want to wait for him and come visit us.. fucker! so yeah.. we waited.. and then at 6 fucking pm that fucking aunty texted me and said they went back home since it was raining in pasir ris.. FUCKER! DON'T GIVE ME FUCKING BULLSHIT HERE LA CB!! IT'S NOT EVEN RAINING LA BDH.. NAK TIPU TAK AGAK2 SAK..

grrrrr! so apparently i sadi goodbye to my shopping today because of you!! not a big deal for you but it is for me!!! eeeeeerrrrrrrrgggggghh!!

k i'll just shut up now.. i'll just shut up now.. Dad, i'm sorry but i just hate your side of the family... that's the reason why i never agree on going over to grandmother's place.. i was never excited to visit them, never excited to go on a holiday with them.. okeh i never agreed anyway... Now you know why right? so from now on stop forcing me to follow them go any where because i will never be happy when i'm with them.. you saw what happen two years back.. you saw what they did to me.. they abandoned me.. for goodness sake i'm your daughter, their own blood and flesh but they still treat me like an outsider.. your nephew, your direct nephew hates me dad.. so there's no point.. here i say and i swear i can never click with your side of the family.. I don't want to have anything to do with them okeh?? i said it before and i'm saying this again.. i never want to be in the same room with them ever again..

tmrw's another elearning day.. sigh.. and it's enterprise.. fuck! k bye...

2009-06-27T23:35:00.004+08:00

The reason i'm blogging now is because apparently i got to know that someone have been visiting my blog.. hahah!

NOW TELL ME WHO'S THE ONE WHO HAVE GOT NO LIFE?? KAU KE KITER?? BDH! KLAU KAU TAK TERASE ASL KAU CKP TU SUMER KAT KAU NYE STATUS?? NOW WHO IS KEEPING TRACK OF WHO'S LIFE?? KITER NAK KEEP TRACK OF KAU NYE LIFE KE KAU YG NAK KEEP TRACK KITER NYE LIFE?? EH BETINA! KAU JGN NAK SUKER2 HATI PANGGIL KAWAN AKU CB LA ITU LA INI.. OUH KAU PANGGIL DIER POMPAN CB? ABEH KAU TU APER BUKAN POMPAN? TAKDE CB? KAU BETINA EHK AKU LUPER.. HAHA! KAU JEALOUS EHK KAU TAKDE CB MCM KAWAN AKU TU? AAAAAAWWWWWWWWHHHHHH!!!!! POOR THING.. EHK BETINA, AKU RASEKAN KAU YG PATUT GET A LIFE LA BDH.. KAU NAK PANGGIL KAWAN AKU BDH DLM BENDE2 GINI SUMER? KAU YG BDH LA.. NEWS SPREAD FAST MY DEAR GIRL.. SKRG SAPER YG BDH NI?? KAU KE DIER?? JGN NAK SUKER2 HATI MAKI ORG EHK, SEDAR DIRI TU SIKET, KAU APER KURANGNYE.. JATUHKAN MARUAH ORG UTK TAHANKAN MARUAH SENDIRI? TSKTSKTSK! GI MAMPOS LA BETINA.. YOU'RE NOT EVEN WORTH IT.. HAHAH! DULU SAPER YG KAU KUTOK2? SKRG SAPER YG KAU RAPAT? DGN SAPER YG KAU MENGADU NASEB KAU SKRG? FUCKING HYPOCRITE..BDH LA KAU.. HAHHA! HAVE FUN READING K POMPAN? OOOPPPSS! SALAH BETINA.. PSL AKU SEDAR AKU PON POMPAN... HAHAHHAHA! UAT AKU KETAWE LA KAU... LOL!

k dah.. aku dah abes.. skrg kau nak ckp aper ke nak terase kau nye psl k? i can't be bothered with you anymore.. hahahahha!

2009-06-27T13:04:00.008+08:00

PICTURES FROM YESTERDAY'S OUTING WITH LOVES <3

Like drunkards sia.. LOL! tido je tau!

3 of us.. LOVED! <3

THIS TWO PICTURES FUNNY MANN! you know i know.. haha! ehk people?? LOL!

Hadi! cannot take the flash.. LOL!

Trying to fight the flash...

LOL!

He still cannot take the flash.. haha!

Lyn, Adik, Dinie =)

hahha! dinie2.. classic sia..

baek ah dinie.. biler mau pass ni??

This is another you know i know story.. hahah!

ah!! tgk aper tu??? hhahah!

Syafiq!

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hahah! no idea what he's doing.. LOL!

Low tide.. =(

CANDY FLOSS!!!!

kesian diorg.. tak pernah mkn candy floss ehk?? haha! jkjk!

awed by the process of making candy floss..

brother and sister..

Syafiq!

Hilfi!

Hadi

Lyn, Feeqah.. <3

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So that was yesterday's evening outing with my loves.. <3>

okeh so after movie, we head to the back of downtown east to eat.. then after aving our dinner, we walked down to MacD cos the guys were still hungry.. hahha! tsktsktsk! dah transform blom?? hahah! k dah ehk.. we then walk to pasir ris park to slack for a while.. Feeqah didn't join us.. so sad... =( not long after that we went home.. part at the bustop.. must go out again soon and often okeh.. =) miss you guys alrdy.. booohooo~!

Today will be an outing with my family dearest.. =) will update about it when i get back.. bye..

2009-06-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

Cognitive module was okeh today..Quite challenging but i managed to complete my worksheet and rj. =) Class ended super early.. hahah! i don't know why.. instead of ending it at 330pm, we ended at like 945am? hahahha! cool or what.. thank you Mr Paul Chin.. And thanks for changing my group... pffft! NOT!

Okeh so after class ended i chat with suganya sweets, ken, and sfaa as usual.. hahah! Sunganya, now you know the softer side of me right?? LOL! i'm not that bitchy afterall huh?? LOL!! (if you even read this) hahah! Love you girl!!

hahah! then later on in the afternoon at about 6 met up with my loves... =)*GRINS* sad though not all can make it.. But to Dinie, Feeqah, Hadi, Hilfi, Syafiq & Adik.. I LOVE YOU ALL!! must do this again okeh?.. soon ah soon.. hahah! will elaborate abt this tmrw.. heheh! with pictures k??

okeh..bye...

2009-06-25T15:32:00.002+08:00

Came across this song here.. very meaningful and it somehow touched my heart.. hahhaha! okeh LOL.. skip the emo part here...

Today's class is e-learning from at home... wth?! i know.. i woke up late.. thanks to zaff i woke up.. if not... LOL! i think i would be sleeping till now.. hahaha! and then when i entered the convo i was fucking lost.. LOL! okeh whatever... i hope tmrw will be easier.. sigh...

many things on my mind right now.. but then again, i can't let it out.. i'm not really sure why i just can't.. tsk! still tired and sleepy.. will update soon.. bye..

Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same. <3

2009-06-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

My day started off rough.. didnt have the mood to do anything.. besides, my brain wasn't even progressing at all.. I was physically awake but mentally asleep the whole entire day... pfffffft! then, during presentation, got a news, wouldnt say it a good nor a bad news... LOL! cos we're going to have another week of holidays... Which means no school for one whole week which also means classes cancelled, which also means we have to do everything including solving the problem statement online at home, which again means, no class, which means no school which means i cannot meet my loves.... booooohooo~!

Okeh i'm crapping.. SHUT UP AMALYNA!!!!!

Okeh, so after class today, went to gamelan room for practice, apparently since there wont be any school tmrw, our performance which we have long ago prepared for will also be cancelled.. tsk! so much for my effort and my 5 pathetic bucks... tsk yet again.... okeh and so training as usual, with everyone joking around with each other... hahah! got new disease called "AYAM BABI" hahha! translate directly in english is CHICKEN PORK!! hahah! get it?? LOL! okeh again i'm crapping...

And so after training went up to level 3 of trcc to meet my syg.. LOL!Lucky got zaff and said.. =D

if not i'll be sleeping in that room alrdy.. hahahha! okeh, so watched the replugios practicing their piece.. so impressed.. how i wish i was musically talented just like them... That brazilian girl's voice is damn nice la... so jealous.... okeh, then after they finish practice said went off to meet his friend, zaff went home, and me, went to the deck with danny and his replug friends.. FUNNY MANN THOSE PEOPLE!! hahhaha! can't stop laughing... LOL!

Some of them left there after so left about 6 of us and so we went to civic centre's MacD since danny and i havent do our rj.. LOL! slacked, talked and crapped till about 11 and off we go on our separate ways... =) thanks people for making my day today.. LOL! you people are funny and one bunch of fun people to be with... =D

Okeh, gtg now.. need to wake up like fucking early tmrw... tsk! stupid school system... pfffft!

2009-06-23T22:05:00.004+08:00

Gamelan training was as per usual.. But since today is suppose to be training day for seniors, we only used up 1hour to practice the piece that we're gonna play on thursday.. tomorrow will be another training.. damn! this is so tiring mann! tsk!

And so after training, me and zaf trained down to Choa Chu Kang.. heheh! Cottons On baby!! hahah! bought a decent t-shirt that i need for thursday performance.. LOL! and zaf bought blue shorts! hahahah! tomorrow cannot wear k bby? tomorrow must wear sopan.. hahaha! LOL! I have to admit, the moment i step into the outlet, i went crazy!! everyhting there was super nice and the prices are so fucking attractive!! Can you imagine almost everything there under 10bucks.. I'm so going to drag my mummy to a Cottons On outlet this weekend!! hahahahha! *GRINS*

So, after buying whats needed, we went off.. haha! decided to have MacD's ice cream which i have not eaten in such a long time. The last time i ate the price was still 50cents per cone, and now, it 70cents.. OMG! so the over-rated mann! tsk! So we sat outside Lot 1 and just chat while finishing our ice creams up..

Trained back home there after, parted at Jurong East and i'm off to Pasir Ris.. Fucking far.... I know.. hahah! Got freaked out for a moment cos apparently there was this psycotic looking pervert standing infront of me staring at me as if he's going to do something to me.. SCARY or what sia?? hahah! Luckily he went off sia.. LOL! and then i thought that i can sleep soundly right after that.. But sadly, i was wrong.. There waws this damn lady from God knows where sitting right beside me.. That was not it, she called her two children to sit with her.. So basically there were three of them sharing on seat in the MRT.. And what pissed me off was that her irritating little daughter just doesnt know how to sit down quietly.. She keep on fidgiting and kicking me and hitting my hand! WHAT A FUCKER!!! GO BACK TO YOUR OWN COUNTRY LA THEN YOU CAN SHARE ONE SEAT WITH 10 PEOPLE OKEH?!?!? stupid much! tsk!

Okeh i'll end this post now.. With a high note actually.. heheh! besides the fact that stupid incident just now...pfffft! =)

2009-06-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

Today was like every other mondays.. Monday blues as usual.. Enterprise was a killer.. well as usual... hahahha! and so i was bored to death and almost fell asleep during the other team's presentations and then i saw preemal camwhoring.. and so........... hahahha! i started my webcam companion and started camwhoring also... hehe.. so the above are the results.. haha..

okeh tomorrow's science... CB ah!!! you know i know... pfffffft! ggggrrrrrrrr!!!! k i'll just skip about that and see how tomorrow goes.. tsk! -,-

Was browsing through the net earlier and i came pass this quote saying ,
" THE DAY THAT YOU DECIDES TO LOVE ME, WILL BE THE DAY AFTER I HAVE GIVEN UP CHASING YOU"
I personally think that it is somehow quite true.. hahah! LOL! whatever la.. going off to lala land soon.. sigh..

Tomorrow will be another day, another module, another training, another sad face, another pool of tears inside, another, another,another,another.... SIGH....... =(

2009-06-21T19:47:00.007+08:00

Pictures from yesterday evening...

This adorable little boy here never fails to make me smile.. he somehow put a smile on my face for a moment.. thank you syg.. =)
He got excited over that longan drink.. haha!

mama, abang and myself..

this cousin of mine have been singing since he was 2.. and he love to play fights with my brother..hahah! i'll try looking for their little pictures and upload them.. heheh.. revenge my brothers.. *GRINS*

my dear little nephew and my dear lovely cousin..

want act cute only ah this two..

my aunty loves me.. =) look alike right?? i know.. hehe

this is my mummy dearest.. ily!

tak abes2 ah ni duer..

we're not sisters.. haha! she's my niece..

my nieces..

~~If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.~~